In all honesty, jealousy is one of the ugliest emotions I’ve ever felt. It’s probably one of the most depressing ones I’ve felt as well.
jealousy (noun) – resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc.
I hate it. I really do. I hate that I’m jealous of others. I hate that satan makes me feel this way. I hate that I resent others just for having more success in their lives in some way, shape, or form.
Letting go of all jealous feelings is no easy task. Stopping sinning in any way, is no easy task. God didn’t give us these challenges and expect them to be easy. Oh no, He knew they would be hard from the beginning. What helps me is peace.
Asking God for peace. I ask God for peace. To not worry about tomorrow, or next weekend. To not worry about the next hour, but to just have peace. More often than not, He grants that very wish. It’s a wonderful feeling. Letting go of all resentment, hurt, pain, anxiety, the like.
I still have an awfully hard time letting go of things that I long for, but I know aren’t right. I know that in the end, it will be worth it. It will be for the best. For God, and for myself. It’s not worth all the pain I’m causing the Lord. No matter what it is, it’s not worth it. It’s not worth disobeying the Lord for, because He will bring us into the Heavens after this life. Life will be better.
I continually ask God to give me peace, and help me let go of jealousy, and sin. I’d appreciate any prayers at the moment, seeing as I’m going through a difficult phase.
It’s hard…oh my…so dang hard. But I can do this. Let go of this jealousy, and anxiety, and sin, and live for Him.
God finds a way for everything. If He wants it to happen. It will happen. I keep telling myself that. I know it’s true. Word for word. Yet, I’m still struggling. I’m merely human. I can do this. I will do this. Jesus will help me do this. God will help me do this.
I am weak, but He is strong. Begone jealousy, anxiety, and sin. My Lord is amazing, and He shall help me prevail through my trials. I pray, and I cry. God is good. I am blessed. This is life. His love is holding me up. I’m falling forward.
Thanks for listening…