I’m Insecure, Don’t Know What For

Yes, the title of this post is in fact a famous line from the most well-known One Direction song out there. XD

I have so many insecurities. Boy, what is it with me admitting my faults in these posts? It’s the best way to be open, honest, and relieve stress I guess. In a semi-recent vent/rant/sob post titled Lost on here, I wrote about my biggest insecurity.

To put it simply, I have an immense fear/guilt/anxiety outbreak whenever I receive a negative or even neutral response from anyone.

For me, that insecurity is even more evident when I don’t know the person, who does or does not give me the response, well.

What I’ve realized is that by living for Jesus and only focusing on treating everyone I stumble across with respect, it doesn’t matter.

If people hold grudges against me for little stuff I supposedly do, and I apologize if I know why, and treat them with the respect I want to be treated with then it’s their loss.

If humans aren’t willing to forgive and forget like you have , then don’t hold that against them. At the same time, don’t be affected by their actions towards you.

I’ve found that Bible verses help me immensely, and I really must delve into God’s word on a regular basis for support.

James 1:2-5 is a great short passage about joy through trials. My insecurities are trials of a sort, and the guilt I feel from doing nothing fades away when I believe and praise Him.

Thank you to gallopingstallion who put the Scripture reference of the James passage in the comments of my Envy & Friendship.

Here are the verses:

James 1:2-5

Trials and Temptations

2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.

All in all I pray that I will take these words to heart.

I have no reason to be insecure. I don’t know why I am. Well, it’s the fear of rejection which I’ve let creep in that’s taking it’s toll. It doesn’t matter though. Jesus is holding me up, and He is always by my side.

With Him I can do everything, and without Him I can’t even breathe.

Jesus washes away my sins, and helps me to treat others with due respect. He reaffirms me that my insecurities need not be insecurities, but lessons and blessings. After I cleanse myself of my wrongdoings, I pray that I will cast aside all guilt because then God has made me blameless.

Jesus I pray, help me let go of my insecurities, and let me live and treat others wholeheartedly for you.

Thanks for keeping me in your prayers.

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7 thoughts on “I’m Insecure, Don’t Know What For

  1. marcusscottlee February 3, 2014 / 5:17 pm

    “And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.” Romans 5:3-5

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  2. Sharon J. Gramling February 3, 2014 / 8:39 pm

    Also, do not value what God does not value. Slanderous, cruel, unkind, negatively critical speech is not valued by God – so it shouldn’t be valued by His kids. If God does not regard unkindness, don’t give it a place of importance or value in your opinions either, no matter who it comes from. Lift those people up to Him in praise and thanksgiving for their lives, and welcome His smile on your heart. Blessings to ya!

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  3. ropheka February 4, 2014 / 12:27 am

    Yes it is very important to keep Bible verses with you to encourage you when needed. I have five pages written down that pretty much covers every situation.

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  4. gallopingstallion February 5, 2014 / 7:52 pm

    Fayth, I’m so glad to hear how well these words written by Jesus’ brother spoke to you. They have been speaking immensely to me lately as well, as I am in a time of waiting, which is something I’ve long struggled with. This passage reminds me that no matter what the struggle is we are facing, that it allows us the opportunity to find great joy and gain endurance. The key to the whole thing for me is that when there is an opportunity, there is also a choice that must be made. You can choose to accept the situation and face it, with the help of the the Holy Spirit, or you can choose to attempt to manage on your own. When you choose the Holy Spirit, you’ll find joy and peace, even in the midst of the burden. Then you ask Jesus, how do you see me? He’ll meet you there. And since Neither Fear, nor insecure are fruits of the Spirit, you will find that you are more than that which the enemy is laying on your chest.

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