Yes, the title of this post is in fact a famous line from the most well-known One Direction song out there. XD
I have so many insecurities. Boy, what is it with me admitting my faults in these posts? It’s the best way to be open, honest, and relieve stress I guess. In a semi-recent vent/rant/sob post titled Lost on here, I wrote about my biggest insecurity.
To put it simply, I have an immense fear/guilt/anxiety outbreak whenever I receive a negative or even neutral response from anyone.
For me, that insecurity is even more evident when I don’t know the person, who does or does not give me the response, well.
What I’ve realized is that by living for Jesus and only focusing on treating everyone I stumble across with respect, it doesn’t matter.
If people hold grudges against me for little stuff I supposedly do, and I apologize if I know why, and treat them with the respect I want to be treated with then it’s their loss.
If humans aren’t willing to forgive and forget like you have , then don’t hold that against them. At the same time, don’t be affected by their actions towards you.
I’ve found that Bible verses help me immensely, and I really must delve into God’s word on a regular basis for support.
James 1:2-5 is a great short passage about joy through trials. My insecurities are trials of a sort, and the guilt I feel from doing nothing fades away when I believe and praise Him.
Thank you to gallopingstallion who put the Scripture reference of the James passage in the comments of my Envy & Friendship.
Here are the verses:
Trials and Temptations
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
All in all I pray that I will take these words to heart.
I have no reason to be insecure. I don’t know why I am. Well, it’s the fear of rejection which I’ve let creep in that’s taking it’s toll. It doesn’t matter though. Jesus is holding me up, and He is always by my side.
With Him I can do everything, and without Him I can’t even breathe.
Jesus washes away my sins, and helps me to treat others with due respect. He reaffirms me that my insecurities need not be insecurities, but lessons and blessings. After I cleanse myself of my wrongdoings, I pray that I will cast aside all guilt because then God has made me blameless.
Jesus I pray, help me let go of my insecurities, and let me live and treat others wholeheartedly for you.
Thanks for keeping me in your prayers.