Today I bring to you something that is on my heart. This is not a post solely because I’ve been neglecting Scripture Sunday, but lately I’ve been feeling increasingly dissatisfied with, to put it simply, life and all the events that have been occurring.
Yes, there are moments that I am filled with God’s joy, especially when I am in the company of loved ones. However, my devotion tonight brought to light several convictions of mine.
I will say it straightforward and bluntly:
I have been seeking satisfaction in worldly things. A more temporal viewpoint has replaced what should be striving to grow and gain from Jesus.
Material possessions, and more recently, positions, have been clouding my mind and hogging my focus. That new MacBook that I want to buy so badly, and the question of if I have a job or not have plagued me with anxiety and such dissatisfaction these past days.
I’ve been finding myself not spending time doing devotions, but instead wasting my time on things that are meaningless in comparison.
I am 100% guilty of spending more time on mobile devices than in God’s word by far.
The one blessing I’ve especially felt in this past week is Christian music. I am still immersed in Tenth Avenue North’s new album, and listening and worshipping to Christian music has been a positive and uplifting experience.
Still, I find myself painfully regretful of how I’ve lost my focus. In retrospect, this has been a trial and learning experience. This is said completely and honestly from experience: pursuing anything other than Jesus is unsatisfied.
Becoming obsessed with myself and worldy materials and events concerning me for the longest time has resulted in thorough unsatisfaction.
Looking back in particular, this past week, my eyes have been opened to so much I have mistakenly done.
Seeking satisfaction anywhere other than Jesus leads me to unhappiness and a permanent state of misery/dreariness.
Although mistakes have been made, God will work in me to help me to correct them.
Through my weakness, He is strong.
Today in church we broke into small groups and discussed different topics. My group’s topic was living beyond our emotions.
I feel as if this topic was given specifically to me for this current realization:
His grace is sufficient for me, and through my weakness He will help me to do better things.
The verse I just read in my devotions tonight goes like this:
“Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things.” Colossians 3:1-2 (NIV)
I am blessed to have had this eye-opening reflection of this past week, and helpful realizations and scripture today to realize it.
It is with a cleaner conscience, a sense of peace, and a little more swing on my step that I press forward into the new week with God in me.
The Lord is the true source of satisfaction.
It is in Him that we will find hope, love, grace, mercy, and peace. I am praying that I will go about living and learning with a more heavenly perspective constantly in heart. Confessing my convictions is the first step to correctly prioritizing my life, and I hope to be held accountable to fully rearranging how I live.
I will stumble, and it won’t be easy. However, His grace and strength will give me strength.
Hallelujah, He works wonders.