A Year of Learning

2015 was a crazy year. I experienced new highs and lows that I would never have guessed I would be concerned with. It’s always a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts when I reflect on a year, and each year is more vivid and fresh in my mind than the last one.

I learned what areas of my life and lifestyle that I need to work on. There are definitely habits of mine and actions/quirks that I am not the most proud of, and I know that I need to make a few changes. Nagging, doubting others, and striving for material perfection are a few of those bad habits that I want to turn around.

In order to address these works in progress, I’d like to try and apply 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 to my daily lifestyle. Am I patient? Am I kind? Do I envy? Do I boast? The goal is to work from the top on down, so that at some point I can say that I was patient and I was kind and I did not envy or boast, and so on.

I also learned that I need to determine and evaluate the true importance of everything I seek and dream of. What should be prioritized? How can I healthily go about doing this? How can I ensure that this is a healthy ambition, or that I pursue my desires in a healthy manner.

I think 2015 also taught me that I should sleep more. Sleep is important and I am always forgetting that.

Another goal of mine is to start eating healthier and putting effort into exercising in the off-season! Trying to eat natural and fresh foods has always been appealing to me, however, working at a grocery store makes that hard!

Additionally, I have so, so much to be grateful for this past year.

I now have my driver’s license! Through various journeys, the miraculous patience of my parents, a few tears, and more life lessons, I acquired that coveted piece of plastic.

I have strengthened existing friendships and invested in genuine new ones. A new school year and more shared adventures are always exciting in that they bring me and other individuals together in various relationships. I am so, so blessed and I celebrate my friendships today! 

And, finally, all of my cousins from Guatemala were able to come and visit us here in the U.S. for a month! We had a such a fantastic time reuniting and investing real-life time and energy into our friendships. It was a magical Christmas in that regard. I am so lucky to have many cousins that come from both of my parent’s families. Cousins make forever friends. It was a great December season to feel loved, be loved, and give love.

In regards to prayer requests for myself and the coming year, what comes to mind is this: church. I currently am not affiliated with any official church or body of people for the purpose of meeting routinely to worship and grow in faith together. Although I do this with my friends, I am not sure if it is in God’s plan for me to find another church or group to further develop my faith with. To be frank, visiting churches scares me. I don’t want to do it. It’s often uncomfortable and I feel like Christians judge more than those who are not, which is the sad truth these days. However, I’m asking you to pray for me and that I would face this fear and that it would dissipate, and also that God would show me another church or group that I can grow to comfortably be a part of if He wills it. Thank you.

I have learned and grown in a multitude of ways this past year, and I am so excited to see what God has in store for me this coming year! Here’s to a year of learning and the coming year of applying the knowledge received. 

It’s time to sleep.

D. Fayth

I don’t know.

I don’t know.

I don’t know how I learn.
I don’t know how I grow.
I don’t know.

I don’t know what I want.
I don’t know what I’m looking for as far as in faith.
I don’t know.

I don’t know how to approach situations.
I don’t know how to make new friends.
I don’t know.

I don’t know what I want to do with my life.
I don’t know what school I want to go to.
I don’t know.

I don’t know how to get other people to understand me.
I don’t know.

I don’t know common sense.
I don’t know how to express myself.
I don’t know how to articulate.
I don’t know.

I don’t know how to please my parents.
I don’t know how to be rational.
I don’t know.

I don’t know how to break habits.
I don’t know how to make habits.
I don’t know.

I don’t know how to not rage.
I don’t know how I’m still in one piece.
I don’t know.

I don’t know how I know the things that I know.
I don’t know.

I don’t know my favorite school subject.
I don’t know why bad things happen.
I don’t know.

But I do know,┬áthat I don’t know.

And I try to know,
what I don’t know.

And God helps me,
through it all:
through the tears,
and the pain,
and the unhealthy strives for personal gain,
and to try to understand.

And somehow, I’m still here trying,
but I don’t know.

People don’t understand.

And I don’t know.

I don’t know how to show
that I don’t know.

I just don’t know.

Consider Your Health

Too often we set a goal for ourselves and try to achieve it with no pauses in the get-go. We care too much about success, whether that be academic recognition, big money, or simply happiness. However, the latter is considered an extremely rare find. 

I used to have an unhealthy obsession with school. My grades needed to be high A’s, and I needed to take the hardest classes in order to receive top accolades. However, I’ve realized, that even though perhaps all that could be attainable if I devoted all of my time to it and used my God-given brain, it’s not worth it. And, more importantly, it’s not healthy.

I still care about my grades, and I still strive to excel. However, it isn’t the end of the world if I don’t do perfectly all the time and I don’t dedicate all of my time to obtaining those perfect grades. I’ve learned that it’s okay to do what you want to do in high school, like take art classes, a personal example of mine.

I thoroughly enjoy graphic design, so I take classes for it. Does it bring down my class rank? Probably. Does it really matter that much? Nope. I’m only in high school, which is far from a place where the majority of my life will be spent, and I want to enjoy myself. I want to be healthy, and I can do that by breaking up my heavy classes with some art. I can still maintain high grades with art classes, too. Sure I won’t be top of my class, but I will have invested hours of my life into something that I have a love for. 

Isn’t that lovely?

I encourage you all, to remember your health. Take the time to do things for you. Open your eyes and look at what you’re doing in life, and do what makes you happy.

Honestly, killing yourself over not attaining your perfect level of material success is not worth it. Get your sleep, soak up your leisure time with fun activities, and make sure to care for yourself, your relationships, and others. 

Invest in Jesus, invest in you, invest in your health.

This post was randomly inspired by a quality talk with a friend this morning. There’s a difference between knowledge and application, so please, choose to be wise and care for your well-being over fitting the nation’s mold of success.

Do what makes you happy. Live what you love, or rather, make sure you love whatever the heck you live.

He is with us;

I’m crazy in over my head, and crazy blessed and crazy overwhelmed. Fall is here, and the startup of school has put me in the center of a whirlwind of activities. 

Particularly this fall, my prayer is to build my relationship with Christ and manage my time so that I prioritize Him, as well as just honoring Him through my actions! 

Hope all is well–

D. Fayth

 

Quote of the Week

A wonderful friend sent me this in a text as encouragement during preseason the other day. She is a dear prayer warrior and sister in Christ. I hope you find comfort in these words, as I did.

“My love for you is deeper than the deepest sea and higher than the highest heights. It is divine, lavish and beyond your wildest imagination. It penetrates to the deepest caverns in your soul. I love you like My Father loves Me. As I am the apple of His eye, so you too are the apple of My eye. Nothing in your past, present or future will ever cause you to lose My love. I rejoice over you. I take pleasure in all that you do. Walk in My love. Remain in My love. Take confidence in knowing that you will never be outside the fervent awareness of my extravagant love for YOU!”

Love is:

Substantial food for thought:

Sixteen Characteristics of Love (Day 231) #BiOY 

Bible in One Year

It is my goal to start doing this before the year is up! I adore the idea of trying to genuinely love through all of the descriptors of love that God declared in His word. I most certainly will have to stop at the first one to start – what do you think of this? 

Summer Grew Wings and Flew

And, once again, summer grew wings and flew. All were in awe and amazement at the speed of the feat had been accomplished.

Wow, this summer has been crazy full of arguments, building friendships, new experiences, and adjusting to uncomfortable situations. This marks 2k15 as the summer that I held my first non-seasonal job. Since June, I’ve worked between 20-30 hours a week, which, for a part-time job, a decent quantity of time. Volleyball has kicked back up and is now in full swing – it is such a time commitment and whirlwind journey that takes me up and down and makes me hate and love the sport. Praying for a season full of memories and confidence and growth with the Lord, other individuals, and abilities.

I’ve been doing an awful job of posting as of late, and, also, I’m stretching myself with extreme procrastination with summer homework. Therefore, I should probably stop typing and go do something about that. Pffft, speaking about proactivity that is not going to happen quite yet…

In my recent ponderings, I’ve mulled over the change and responsibility that accompanies aging. Every year becoming a little bit older brings an awareness that younger individuals are looking up to me – this is especially realizable when it comes to any team or group effort, in my case, my volleyball team. When looked at this way, I feel a sense of intimidation and also shame when looking at a reflection of my actions at the age I am now. Still, it is with God who I confide in to put those past actions aside. We no longer have the ability to control the past, so we learn from it and move on. We do have the ability to, at least partially, control the future, so it is with great hope that I can be a decent model for those observing and succeeding me.

A fault of mine that has particularly come to eye recently has to be judgement. I hear a few words spew out of the mouth of an individual, gauge their general air and others’ reactions to them, and too often find myself thinking thoughts or making remarks that I have no designated worthiness to make. It is my prayer this fall to stop this automatic judgement and instead to receive people I encounter with an open mind and willing amicability. 

Anyhow, I hope and pray that all of you are having smooth transitions from the end of summer into the next season of this year and life.
Here’s to a new school year with faith and love preceding all other things. 

With trust in Him,

D. Fayth

Verse of the Week

This post is apologetically late, but I am tired, content, and sunburnt from the most lovely, refreshing day at the beach today. I truly am blessed, and as I venture forth into the unknown of this coming school year I will go with peace. God is fighting for me.

Quote of the Week

Forever grateful for God’s gracious love and sacrifice. Looking beyond the past to what He has promised us–