Effort

To be fully invested in anything you need to put forth effort. As a self-motivated individual, I know this all too well. However, there is a discrepancy between knowing and acting, and yet another in truly knowing with one’s soul and heart and spirit or simply knowing with one’s mind.

My spiritual life has been lackluster as of late, and every little reminder of this fact I seem to brush aside and get annoyed by. I know in my mind that this needs to change, and I know deep down in my heart as well, but I need to put the extra effort into it. I pray that I will feel this and desire this and truly know this in my heart and soul, not just in my brain. 

I long for a renewal and a revival of my spiritual convictions and I hope that you will join me in prayer for this as well. 

It’s time to devote my effort and priorities into addressing Him and His plan for me. I need to trust, to believe, to heal, and to pray. I want to feel my spirit move in joy, worship, and awe again. So it’s time to get my head out of my head, literally, and into my heart and soul. 

Lord, show me the love I don’t deserve and revive my soul to thirst for you. x 

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Hello

It’s been a while, and I’ve wandered off track…but it’s time to come back and make up for all the time that I’ve missed.

I pray that I will prioritize Jesus in my daily life and that He will be ever present in my thoughts. I’ve been away for too long. I realize that. And I’m sooo ready to love and live consciously with Him at the rightful center of my life. 

Cheers.

A Year of Learning

2015 was a crazy year. I experienced new highs and lows that I would never have guessed I would be concerned with. It’s always a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts when I reflect on a year, and each year is more vivid and fresh in my mind than the last one.

I learned what areas of my life and lifestyle that I need to work on. There are definitely habits of mine and actions/quirks that I am not the most proud of, and I know that I need to make a few changes. Nagging, doubting others, and striving for material perfection are a few of those bad habits that I want to turn around.

In order to address these works in progress, I’d like to try and apply 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 to my daily lifestyle. Am I patient? Am I kind? Do I envy? Do I boast? The goal is to work from the top on down, so that at some point I can say that I was patient and I was kind and I did not envy or boast, and so on.

I also learned that I need to determine and evaluate the true importance of everything I seek and dream of. What should be prioritized? How can I healthily go about doing this? How can I ensure that this is a healthy ambition, or that I pursue my desires in a healthy manner.

I think 2015 also taught me that I should sleep more. Sleep is important and I am always forgetting that.

Another goal of mine is to start eating healthier and putting effort into exercising in the off-season! Trying to eat natural and fresh foods has always been appealing to me, however, working at a grocery store makes that hard!

Additionally, I have so, so much to be grateful for this past year.

I now have my driver’s license! Through various journeys, the miraculous patience of my parents, a few tears, and more life lessons, I acquired that coveted piece of plastic.

I have strengthened existing friendships and invested in genuine new ones. A new school year and more shared adventures are always exciting in that they bring me and other individuals together in various relationships. I am so, so blessed and I celebrate my friendships today! 

And, finally, all of my cousins from Guatemala were able to come and visit us here in the U.S. for a month! We had a such a fantastic time reuniting and investing real-life time and energy into our friendships. It was a magical Christmas in that regard. I am so lucky to have many cousins that come from both of my parent’s families. Cousins make forever friends. It was a great December season to feel loved, be loved, and give love.

In regards to prayer requests for myself and the coming year, what comes to mind is this: church. I currently am not affiliated with any official church or body of people for the purpose of meeting routinely to worship and grow in faith together. Although I do this with my friends, I am not sure if it is in God’s plan for me to find another church or group to further develop my faith with. To be frank, visiting churches scares me. I don’t want to do it. It’s often uncomfortable and I feel like Christians judge more than those who are not, which is the sad truth these days. However, I’m asking you to pray for me and that I would face this fear and that it would dissipate, and also that God would show me another church or group that I can grow to comfortably be a part of if He wills it. Thank you.

I have learned and grown in a multitude of ways this past year, and I am so excited to see what God has in store for me this coming year! Here’s to a year of learning and the coming year of applying the knowledge received. 

It’s time to sleep.

D. Fayth