A Year of Learning

2015 was a crazy year. I experienced new highs and lows that I would never have guessed I would be concerned with. It’s always a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts when I reflect on a year, and each year is more vivid and fresh in my mind than the last one.

I learned what areas of my life and lifestyle that I need to work on. There are definitely habits of mine and actions/quirks that I am not the most proud of, and I know that I need to make a few changes. Nagging, doubting others, and striving for material perfection are a few of those bad habits that I want to turn around.

In order to address these works in progress, I’d like to try and apply 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 to my daily lifestyle. Am I patient? Am I kind? Do I envy? Do I boast? The goal is to work from the top on down, so that at some point I can say that I was patient and I was kind and I did not envy or boast, and so on.

I also learned that I need to determine and evaluate the true importance of everything I seek and dream of. What should be prioritized? How can I healthily go about doing this? How can I ensure that this is a healthy ambition, or that I pursue my desires in a healthy manner.

I think 2015 also taught me that I should sleep more. Sleep is important and I am always forgetting that.

Another goal of mine is to start eating healthier and putting effort into exercising in the off-season! Trying to eat natural and fresh foods has always been appealing to me, however, working at a grocery store makes that hard!

Additionally, I have so, so much to be grateful for this past year.

I now have my driver’s license! Through various journeys, the miraculous patience of my parents, a few tears, and more life lessons, I acquired that coveted piece of plastic.

I have strengthened existing friendships and invested in genuine new ones. A new school year and more shared adventures are always exciting in that they bring me and other individuals together in various relationships. I am so, so blessed and I celebrate my friendships today! 

And, finally, all of my cousins from Guatemala were able to come and visit us here in the U.S. for a month! We had a such a fantastic time reuniting and investing real-life time and energy into our friendships. It was a magical Christmas in that regard. I am so lucky to have many cousins that come from both of my parent’s families. Cousins make forever friends. It was a great December season to feel loved, be loved, and give love.

In regards to prayer requests for myself and the coming year, what comes to mind is this: church. I currently am not affiliated with any official church or body of people for the purpose of meeting routinely to worship and grow in faith together. Although I do this with my friends, I am not sure if it is in God’s plan for me to find another church or group to further develop my faith with. To be frank, visiting churches scares me. I don’t want to do it. It’s often uncomfortable and I feel like Christians judge more than those who are not, which is the sad truth these days. However, I’m asking you to pray for me and that I would face this fear and that it would dissipate, and also that God would show me another church or group that I can grow to comfortably be a part of if He wills it. Thank you.

I have learned and grown in a multitude of ways this past year, and I am so excited to see what God has in store for me this coming year! Here’s to a year of learning and the coming year of applying the knowledge received. 

It’s time to sleep.

D. Fayth

Quote of the Week

A wonderful friend sent me this in a text as encouragement during preseason the other day. She is a dear prayer warrior and sister in Christ. I hope you find comfort in these words, as I did.

“My love for you is deeper than the deepest sea and higher than the highest heights. It is divine, lavish and beyond your wildest imagination. It penetrates to the deepest caverns in your soul. I love you like My Father loves Me. As I am the apple of His eye, so you too are the apple of My eye. Nothing in your past, present or future will ever cause you to lose My love. I rejoice over you. I take pleasure in all that you do. Walk in My love. Remain in My love. Take confidence in knowing that you will never be outside the fervent awareness of my extravagant love for YOU!”

Verse of the Week

This post is apologetically late, but I am tired, content, and sunburnt from the most lovely, refreshing day at the beach today. I truly am blessed, and as I venture forth into the unknown of this coming school year I will go with peace. God is fighting for me.

Quote of the Week

Forever grateful for God’s gracious love and sacrifice. Looking beyond the past to what He has promised us–

Isaiah 43:18-19

As an individual who becomes too much of a perfectionist when it comes to sports, this verse is applicable to my life in the high school athlete area as well as to my faith and other various categories of living.

He is doing a new thing in my life, and this life is soon to be of zero importance. He has bigger and better things in store for me. Dwelling on past mistakes does nothing except to tear your confidence, skill, self-worth, enthusiasm, and motivation down. Therefore, I put my past mistakes behind me and rise up to face and improve myself with each fresh moment. Praying for self-confidence and faith development — and He is with me every step of the way.

Regret, Change, and Decisions

There will always be a time in your life when you are faced with a (or multiple) decision(s).

Making decisions is scary. Every little change in your life can ultimately impact you astronomically.

Recently, I’ve been hit in the face with a bunch of decisions. Something awakened inside of me and I’ve finally decided to accept and address the fact that I’m not truly happy with the way my life currently is. There is a mix of different priorities and time commitments that I’m questioning, and I have some very important choices to make.

My mum says that the teenage years are the prime time for change, and I can see that. Now that I’m young, it’s the opportune time to start exploring and stepping out of the comfort zone. Still, that is easier said than done, as most things seem to be in this day and age.

Now, for me, the ever overcomplicating person, it is definitely not without regret that I am facing these decisions and inevitable changes (or chances for change). In a way, I could carry on living life the way I am now. Dabbling in a little of this, spending a lot of time with that, and I would’ve been…okay. Not exactly happy, not exactly not, that is about what I would’ve been. I probably would be off drifting in this ocean of life somewhere on the edges of the eye of a turbulent storm.

But I’ve made a resolution: I want to be happy. Doesn’t everyone? You might ask. I know I asked myself that question, and yes, I wholeheartedly believe that everybody wants to be happy. However, happiness is not something that is easily achieved. I’m about to make some big decisions, and I know that a little spark of regret is going to follow me no matter what I choose. My ridiculously conflicted self just wants to be happy, and so I’m going to try and set my soul at ease. This is not something that can happen without God playing a part in my life, and so it is with serious consideration, lots of tears, long talks, and prayers that I am saying this.

Regret is this big, gaping, piercing cloud sometimes. It gnaws away at me, and I let it. Still, as I am praying about these decisions and changes that are bound to happen, I’m praying for peace. Regret is unnecessary, we can live without it. In fact, life is often better without regret. I’m not talking about a healthy regret after a sinful decision, no, I’m talking about an anxious regret, one of those regrets that make you question everything.With God’s help, I will overcome regret, among other things. With prayers of guidance and trust I pray to shame regret, to be given the wisdom to make the decisions and changes that will be accompanied by the least regret–

I need to focus on what is best for me and what is God’s will. At the moment, the impact of whatever decision I make is not to be based off of some third parties’ opinions and the thoughts of other mundanes around me. Everyone is deserved of happiness, including myself, and I pray to attain that with God and by His will. The taunts and jeers of other humans and my own sinful conscience will oft do nothing but sway me into a miserable state of unhappiness.

In this whirlwind of a post, I think I’m trying to say that change is inevitable. Decisions must be made, things change, regret happens, but life moves on. God wills what He wills, and He will let it be known to me with time. If you think of it, pray for me to discover what God wills for me.

We all have our moments of doubt and wish things turned out differently once in a while, but once something happens we do not have the opportunity to change the past. Only Jesus has that power, and He has a plan, no matter what happens. Everything happens to everybody because Jesus wills it. If He wants it to happen, it will happen. Remember that.

Forget regret, I want, and I will choose to be happy.

Quote of the Week

I am so, so blessed. In the darkest times and the most joyous He is with me without fail.

Quote of the Week

Sometimes we need to go beyond our boundaries to discover things that God has in store for us.

The Future

What a daunting, stressful, and exciting subject.

The future: typically consisting of college or university, high school graduation, choosing a profession, earning a living, and doing something with your life.

We worry too much. Yes, we all want to do great things. Or, at least, I want to do great things, however, there will always be mountains to climb and valleys to stumble in before we achieve greatness. And, also, everyone thinks of greatness as something different. To me, earthly greatness is finding something to do in life that I love, and to spread God’s message through it.

Last night was my older sister’s high school graduation party, so it was rather nostalgic and a glimpse at what I will encounter in the near years. I am, to be frank, a worrywart. I stress about my grades, I stress about busy schedules, but all at the same time, I love to be doing things and am excited about the future. How exactly does that work? I’m not sure, but God knows.

Yes there is pressure on myself, especially for school, from people who know I am academically blessed and myself. However, there is a line between having a life and perfectionism and working too hard. I need to come to terms with this, and yet, I pray that I will learn how to live my life accordingly. Life can’t be worth living if all that is prioritized are grades and earthly matters.

There are many challenges and trials in life that God gives us for a purpose, and He has blessed me in unique ways that I want to stretch and utilize in order to please Him. He additionally has given me weaknesses, also accordingly, so that I may learn and grow in the process of living life in the future (for the future).

The future, there’s that daunting subject yet again. If we’re speaking in technical terms, at this very moment, I am living the future. We are all living the future. We live in the future. The future is here and now and it is in every single breath I take. I don’t even know if I can reference the future as a subject, or even an object. The future is all part of a concept. Today’s past was yesterday’s future and tomorrow’s future will be the day after tomorrow’s past. Things get messy real quick if you reference the whole time concept of future in that regard.

Pressure almost always surrounds the concept of future. Often times there are massive walls of individual’s expectations for you to excel and achieve a level of “success” however it is deemed.

Yet, while keeping all this in the back of your mind, don’t stress out too much. Simply focus on what God throws at you each and every day. You tackle the future every moment of your life. What some people consider a waste of time could be a necessary period of relaxation. Don’t cave and subject yourself to worry and stress about the future based on what other individuals think or say, but live your life and view the future with a swing in your step and Jesus in mind.

He has plans for you, plans for you to prosper. Only He knows how they will turn out, and every single instance of your life plays out for reasons entirely unknown to everyone except God.

Speaking of the future, consider what you might think when you look back at yourself now in ten years.

God has a plan. I am excited. I am scared. The future is daunting, but I would like to think of myself as ready.

This was such a discombobulated post, but I hope someone out there gleans from my emotions and what I am trying to express through these words.

With a determination to look at the future from a different perspective–

D. Fayth

Words of the Week

Life has again sucked me up into a whirlwind, and it’s about time that I sat down and reevaluated my time management and my priorities. Always remember, He is ever with us. I too often forget it. It is a comfort, honor, and, in its own way, a confession to hear this:

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I want to live for Jesus not out of self-obligation but out of love for the amazing and awe-inspiring Creator. He is my rock, and He has promised me salvation. It is through this that I am saved, and I am beyond blessed to live this life on Earth with no need for fear for the future.

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Have a blessed week! I hope your summers are faring well. I hope to post some full-fledged content posts soon.

— D. Fayth