A Year of Learning

2015 was a crazy year. I experienced new highs and lows that I would never have guessed I would be concerned with. It’s always a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts when I reflect on a year, and each year is more vivid and fresh in my mind than the last one.

I learned what areas of my life and lifestyle that I need to work on. There are definitely habits of mine and actions/quirks that I am not the most proud of, and I know that I need to make a few changes. Nagging, doubting others, and striving for material perfection are a few of those bad habits that I want to turn around.

In order to address these works in progress, I’d like to try and apply 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 to my daily lifestyle. Am I patient? Am I kind? Do I envy? Do I boast? The goal is to work from the top on down, so that at some point I can say that I was patient and I was kind and I did not envy or boast, and so on.

I also learned that I need to determine and evaluate the true importance of everything I seek and dream of. What should be prioritized? How can I healthily go about doing this? How can I ensure that this is a healthy ambition, or that I pursue my desires in a healthy manner.

I think 2015 also taught me that I should sleep more. Sleep is important and I am always forgetting that.

Another goal of mine is to start eating healthier and putting effort into exercising in the off-season! Trying to eat natural and fresh foods has always been appealing to me, however, working at a grocery store makes that hard!

Additionally, I have so, so much to be grateful for this past year.

I now have my driver’s license! Through various journeys, the miraculous patience of my parents, a few tears, and more life lessons, I acquired that coveted piece of plastic.

I have strengthened existing friendships and invested in genuine new ones. A new school year and more shared adventures are always exciting in that they bring me and other individuals together in various relationships. I am so, so blessed and I celebrate my friendships today! 

And, finally, all of my cousins from Guatemala were able to come and visit us here in the U.S. for a month! We had a such a fantastic time reuniting and investing real-life time and energy into our friendships. It was a magical Christmas in that regard. I am so lucky to have many cousins that come from both of my parent’s families. Cousins make forever friends. It was a great December season to feel loved, be loved, and give love.

In regards to prayer requests for myself and the coming year, what comes to mind is this: church. I currently am not affiliated with any official church or body of people for the purpose of meeting routinely to worship and grow in faith together. Although I do this with my friends, I am not sure if it is in God’s plan for me to find another church or group to further develop my faith with. To be frank, visiting churches scares me. I don’t want to do it. It’s often uncomfortable and I feel like Christians judge more than those who are not, which is the sad truth these days. However, I’m asking you to pray for me and that I would face this fear and that it would dissipate, and also that God would show me another church or group that I can grow to comfortably be a part of if He wills it. Thank you.

I have learned and grown in a multitude of ways this past year, and I am so excited to see what God has in store for me this coming year! Here’s to a year of learning and the coming year of applying the knowledge received. 

It’s time to sleep.

D. Fayth

The Future

What a daunting, stressful, and exciting subject.

The future: typically consisting of college or university, high school graduation, choosing a profession, earning a living, and doing something with your life.

We worry too much. Yes, we all want to do great things. Or, at least, I want to do great things, however, there will always be mountains to climb and valleys to stumble in before we achieve greatness. And, also, everyone thinks of greatness as something different. To me, earthly greatness is finding something to do in life that I love, and to spread God’s message through it.

Last night was my older sister’s high school graduation party, so it was rather nostalgic and a glimpse at what I will encounter in the near years. I am, to be frank, a worrywart. I stress about my grades, I stress about busy schedules, but all at the same time, I love to be doing things and am excited about the future. How exactly does that work? I’m not sure, but God knows.

Yes there is pressure on myself, especially for school, from people who know I am academically blessed and myself. However, there is a line between having a life and perfectionism and working too hard. I need to come to terms with this, and yet, I pray that I will learn how to live my life accordingly. Life can’t be worth living if all that is prioritized are grades and earthly matters.

There are many challenges and trials in life that God gives us for a purpose, and He has blessed me in unique ways that I want to stretch and utilize in order to please Him. He additionally has given me weaknesses, also accordingly, so that I may learn and grow in the process of living life in the future (for the future).

The future, there’s that daunting subject yet again. If we’re speaking in technical terms, at this very moment, I am living the future. We are all living the future. We live in the future. The future is here and now and it is in every single breath I take. I don’t even know if I can reference the future as a subject, or even an object. The future is all part of a concept. Today’s past was yesterday’s future and tomorrow’s future will be the day after tomorrow’s past. Things get messy real quick if you reference the whole time concept of future in that regard.

Pressure almost always surrounds the concept of future. Often times there are massive walls of individual’s expectations for you to excel and achieve a level of “success” however it is deemed.

Yet, while keeping all this in the back of your mind, don’t stress out too much. Simply focus on what God throws at you each and every day. You tackle the future every moment of your life. What some people consider a waste of time could be a necessary period of relaxation. Don’t cave and subject yourself to worry and stress about the future based on what other individuals think or say, but live your life and view the future with a swing in your step and Jesus in mind.

He has plans for you, plans for you to prosper. Only He knows how they will turn out, and every single instance of your life plays out for reasons entirely unknown to everyone except God.

Speaking of the future, consider what you might think when you look back at yourself now in ten years.

God has a plan. I am excited. I am scared. The future is daunting, but I would like to think of myself as ready.

This was such a discombobulated post, but I hope someone out there gleans from my emotions and what I am trying to express through these words.

With a determination to look at the future from a different perspective–

D. Fayth

Quote of the Week

This week the quote of the week is actually a rhetorical sort of question:

Why wish upon a star when you can pray to the one who created it?

I realize that many have not yet had the blessing of hearing the gospel and learning about Jesus, but to my fellow Christians and those who have heard the truth – think on that concept.

Here’s a very inspirational and insightful video journal by Mike Donehey, lead singer of Tenth Avenue North, on their new song Stars in the Night. I wrote a post on my amazing concert experience with them just last week! Click here to read it.

They’re one of my favorite music groups of all time, and Christian too.

It’s an awesome song, and I encourage you to go and listen to it!

Be encouraged, and know that God’s promises are kept and stars are beautiful reminders of His glory and grace.