Effort

To be fully invested in anything you need to put forth effort. As a self-motivated individual, I know this all too well. However, there is a discrepancy between knowing and acting, and yet another in truly knowing with one’s soul and heart and spirit or simply knowing with one’s mind.

My spiritual life has been lackluster as of late, and every little reminder of this fact I seem to brush aside and get annoyed by. I know in my mind that this needs to change, and I know deep down in my heart as well, but I need to put the extra effort into it. I pray that I will feel this and desire this and truly know this in my heart and soul, not just in my brain. 

I long for a renewal and a revival of my spiritual convictions and I hope that you will join me in prayer for this as well. 

It’s time to devote my effort and priorities into addressing Him and His plan for me. I need to trust, to believe, to heal, and to pray. I want to feel my spirit move in joy, worship, and awe again. So it’s time to get my head out of my head, literally, and into my heart and soul. 

Lord, show me the love I don’t deserve and revive my soul to thirst for you. x 

Perfection and Utilizing God-Given Abilites

To start this off, I honestly do not consider myself a perfectionist. I am not perfect by any means, and I don’t necessarily try to be perfect in everything that I do.

Now, there’s also a question to address. Is it okay to try to be perfect? Is it wrong to try to do your best at everything? The answer to that is: absolutely not! God has given us all unique abilities and talents and He loves to see us use them as best we can.

Nevertheless, I do think the whole concept of perfection can make a person become obsessed with the idea. Too much energy wasted and time spent to attempt to be perfect at everything, or too much stress arisen by failure to meet the standards of perfection is not appealing by any means. God doesn’t want us to strive to be perfect and distress when we’re not, because we are not made to be perfect. I believe that the constant strive for unattainable perfection and mindset that it is unacceptable for anything less just sends Christians, and for that matter, anybody, in a downward spiral. That is why perfection ism is seen in a negative light.

We’re human. God is not. God is perfect, and we are sinners. That’s just how He decided to set up this world.

Back to the beginning, I’d like to think I know myself well enough to truthfully say I’m not classified as a perfectionist. I’ve been called an overachiever, but perfection is not my dire goal.

When it all winds down to it, the whole reason why I was inspired to write this post is the current situation of my grades.

Unsurprisingly to those who know me, the times I have been called an ‘overachiever’ relate to school-situations. I try to give good amount of effort to my academics, and some might classify my ‘good amount’ as ‘above and beyond expectations’.

I’m naturally gifted in the area of academic schoolwork. For some reason, God has blessed me with the ability to learn and understand easily. Getting solid A’s isn’t necessarily a piece of cake for me, but I don’t have to work quire as hard for my grades as others do.

So, the case is, last year I had a bangin’ school year. My grades were exceedingly high, and my classes were reasonably easy. I passed with high scores in a breeze.

Naturally, I expected myself to be able to pass with solid grades this year as well, with perhaps a little more work required. As I entered this school year, I was not surprised to find that classes were slightly more difficult, as they tend to progress from each grade. However, I took a class only to discover that

a) the teacher wasn’t the best

b) there weren’t many grades to make your grade ideal

c) it was different, and it required more work than any of my previous classes on my part.

Currently, my grade for that class isn’t perfect. I scored some low grades during the course of the class and worked to raise them, but I couldn’t raise them as high as I would’ve liked to in the allotted time. I have less than my normal high A, but that’s okay.

The grade I have isn’t bad by any means. Some might consider it excellent.

However, I’m left with the daunting thoughts: God has given me the ability to excel at school, and if I would have studied more and worked harder than my grade could’ve easily been higher.

If I would’ve made the time for extra studying then I could maybe have a high A.

All in all, it doesn’t matter. It’s okay to not be perfect.

It’s all part of the learning experience. Forget about the maybe’s and the what ifs, but remember the lesson you learned from not achieving your expectations, whether that be perfection or higher than what received.

This has been an eye-opening experience for me.

Do I value my grades too much? Also, what can I do to better utilize what God has given me?

Not everything can come without some good effort, including grades, even for those who would be considered academically blessed.

However, it is a hope of mine that I can manage to excel at academics through the rest of my high school career since God has given me the ability, so I should take advantage of it.

Everyone is blessed in different areas. Firstly, realize that it’s okay if you’re not the top of your class, or the fastest runner on your team. Secondly, use your God-given abilities for the best you can to honor God.

He loves us when we succeed, but more importantly, He loves us when we fail and make mistakes.