2014. It’s another year, a new beginning, a start, a change, a blessing, a lesson, a journey, a mountain, a climb, and a simple number. A two, zero, one, four. A new year to prosper, to flourish, blossom, conquer, and praise Him.
We always seem to tell the new year to be good to us, but how can it be? Jesus is the one who controls and oversees our lives. He makes our lives to shape our beings, and He carries us through the ups and downs for His own reasons.
Seeing as we’re in the last stretch of 2013, I’m feeling rather reflective on this year at the moment. So, so much has changed. Maybe it’s just because now, I’m still a child, but ever so much more understanding, mature, and growing.
2013 has been a huge growth year for me. I’ve established my best friends, good friends, and just several friendships that have grown to mean worlds to me. Jesus has been good to me. As He always is, regardless of my clouded vision.
Not only in friendship, but in faith, in virtues, in wisdom, thoughts, and actions I’ve grown.
I see my childish actions from before, and sometimes, I wonder how I used to be that, but now I’m so different. Adults always tell me that life passes in a blink, and that you grow up before you know it.
It’s one of those sayings you grow used to and tired of hearing the older people in your life say. There’s so much truth to it though. I am simply a teen, and I don’t even begin to try to comprehend what adults mean by this, but I do understand. I understand how people can change, friendships can change, life can change, I can change, and all in an instant. If I revealed my age to you, I believe you’d be rather shocked. At the fact that I’m as old as I am, and I guess I seem older through my musings and reflections.
There are days during a year that pass by seemingly dutifully slow, and there are days that you’re having so much fun that they whiz past you in a blur. All of those days make up your life, help shape who you are, and add to your life knowledge. They teach you what is right and what is wrong, if you can even define that.
I’ve learned that complaining doesn’t help, or at least, most of the time it doesn’t. I’ve learned that doing the things that scare you the most, or that you dread, turn out to be the beginning of something great. I get scared easily, of what others think, of how I’ll look to others, and I do have an insecure feeling about how others view me.
It’s a horrible feeling, anxiety that is. I’ve learned that you need to put that behind you. Don’t be scared of what others think. Pursue whatever you want, within Godly standards, and if others judge you, they’re not worth thinking about.
This isn’t be any means easy. I’m still learning as it is, and I’m struggling with the aforementioned concept and conquering my fear, but I’m taking baby steps. Jesus is with me, and you, every step of the way.
My faith journey has fluctuated so much throughout the year of 2013. It has gone from strong, to tentative, to somewhere in-between. Admittedly, at the moment it’s in that middle space, but I pray that Jesus will set me on the path to strong again.
Recently, a friend gave me a tip, she said something vaguely along the lines of, “Don’t be worried about it, you can do it. Think about it this way, you can’t do anything, but God, yeah, He can do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. So just do it.”
As far as friendships go, I don’t necessarily have all my closest friends at my high school, but I have wonderfully Godly best friends that all live in the vicinity somewhat near me. I am very blessed to have wonderful guys and girls as my closest friends, and enjoy every second of my time spent with them. I feel like I rely on my friends so much, for prayer and everything, and they are a huge blessing. It’s awesome to have friends of both genders. Having input and advice from both perspectives is immensely helpful and meaningful. At the beginning of 2013 I would’ve just said they’re good friends, but now I can say they’re my best.
I started this blog in 2013, and it’s helped me reflect on my faith journey, address my issues, doubts, praises, and just Christianity as a whole. I’d like to thank you, as readers, for just reading my musings and ups and downs. It just means a lot, that someone out there is reading what I’m writing, that someone cares, and that someone relates to me. I appreciate any and every comment people make. Please, comment and tell me what you think! Or prayer requests and anything like that is welcome!
All in all 2013 was a good year. A lovely one. Albeit, A rough one at times, and many lessons were learnt, but that was all for the greater good. God blessed me this past year, and I wouldn’t change anything, even though I do have my regrets. It has left me with many memories that will linger.
Praying that you ring in the new year with love, joy, peace, and hope. 2014 shall be a good year, I have faith in Jesus.
Wishing you the best ending to 2013, and joy in the coming year. Make it count. Work with Jesus, and make it something to be proud of and to reflect on. Cut bad habits, start new journeys, climb bigger mountains, and be constant in prayer and praising Him.