Summer Grew Wings and Flew

And, once again, summer grew wings and flew. All were in awe and amazement at the speed of the feat had been accomplished.

Wow, this summer has been crazy full of arguments, building friendships, new experiences, and adjusting to uncomfortable situations. This marks 2k15 as the summer that I held my first non-seasonal job. Since June, I’ve worked between 20-30 hours a week, which, for a part-time job, a decent quantity of time. Volleyball has kicked back up and is now in full swing – it is such a time commitment and whirlwind journey that takes me up and down and makes me hate and love the sport. Praying for a season full of memories and confidence and growth with the Lord, other individuals, and abilities.

I’ve been doing an awful job of posting as of late, and, also, I’m stretching myself with extreme procrastination with summer homework. Therefore, I should probably stop typing and go do something about that. Pffft, speaking about proactivity that is not going to happen quite yet…

In my recent ponderings, I’ve mulled over the change and responsibility that accompanies aging. Every year becoming a little bit older brings an awareness that younger individuals are looking up to me – this is especially realizable when it comes to any team or group effort, in my case, my volleyball team. When looked at this way, I feel a sense of intimidation and also shame when looking at a reflection of my actions at the age I am now. Still, it is with God who I confide in to put those past actions aside. We no longer have the ability to control the past, so we learn from it and move on. We do have the ability to, at least partially, control the future, so it is with great hope that I can be a decent model for those observing and succeeding me.

A fault of mine that has particularly come to eye recently has to be judgement. I hear a few words spew out of the mouth of an individual, gauge their general air and others’ reactions to them, and too often find myself thinking thoughts or making remarks that I have no designated worthiness to make. It is my prayer this fall to stop this automatic judgement and instead to receive people I encounter with an open mind and willing amicability. 

Anyhow, I hope and pray that all of you are having smooth transitions from the end of summer into the next season of this year and life.
Here’s to a new school year with faith and love preceding all other things. 

With trust in Him,

D. Fayth

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Re: Judgement

There’s this part of me deep down that I really would like to disappear. It’s that part of me that automatically judges people by their first appearance or actions, whether I know them or not.

I don’t usually express this judgement through my actions, and I act as friendly as I can towards all people, but there’s this place that gnaws just a bit at the edge of my mind. Judging others is something that I have a hard time helping myself from doing, but I’m very aware of it and I want to stop.

These verses have helped me:

Matthew 7:1-5

1 “Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2 For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. 3 “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4 How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5 You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

Matthew 7:7-8

7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

Isaiah 54:10
For the mountains may depart and the hills disappear, but My kindness shall not leave you. My promise of peace for you will never be broken, says the Lord Who has mercy upon you.

I continue to pray to let judgment flee my mind and to think “I’m no better than them, and God loves them too.”

I know that I have countless flaws and sins, and I have no right to judge them other people. I should focus on how I can get rid of my wrongdoings instead of focusing on other people.

I actually have addressed judgement on my blog before, and you will be linked back to that post if you click here.

This is a continuation of a journey that has been with me for as long as I can remember. To conquer and to love all– A quest to leave judgement behind is ongoing. Prayers appreciated,

–Fayth

Envy & Friendship

Envy is a horrible feeling. I absolutely detest it with every ounce of my being. Yet, we all feel it creeping on us and seeping into our bones.

Envy is a struggle I have faced time and time again. Mainly, I envy others abilities to be social, to make friends, and to have many close friendships. When I type this all out, I realize how ridiculous this all is.

I am blessed with the best friends I could ask for, and what we have is no less special than the friendships others have as well.

A big factor in this aspect of my jealousy tends to be the fact that most of my best friends do not attend the same school that I do. While there are many times that I am grateful of this fact, for multiple reasons, I can’t help but long for the security of a big group of friends to surround me at school.

What I have come to realize is that it doesn’t matter. My goal in life is to live for Jesus everyday. If I successfully do that, then I will build friendships from it, and many other results with occur as well.

Sociality is a trait that is not nearly as easy for me as it is for other people, but I have come to realize that even if it’s not one of my strengths, Jesus has blessed me with many others.

My fear is of the initial talking and getting to know a person before I’m comfortable with them. I fear judgement and unacceptance.

What I need to accept is the fact that friendships can’t be formed without risks. Heck, nothing great in relationships and friendships can come without risks. We have to take risks if we want a chance at success. Envy is a pitiful reason to covet things that you, in fact, could have yourself.

My prayer is that I can put my envy behind me, and take the risk to form friendships. To put myself out there, and be willing to possibly get hurt. With Jesus I can do anything, but with myself alone I can do nothing.

It is with Jesus that I will take risks, live for Him, and build friendships. It would be without Jesus’ pride in me that I would sit back and covet what is within reach.

As much as I hate the phrase, everything does happen for a reason. Only the Father knows.

All prayers appreciated,

–Changing for Him

Quote of the Week

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I do try to trust God’s judgement. I just need to come to terms with myself and humble myself enough to wholeheartedly do so. God loves everyone. I’m no better than anybody else, and also they’re worth loving.

Judgement

We as Christians often recognize being judgmental as a sin. By glancing at someone and taking them in for 5 seconds we automatically judge them based on basic appearance. Human nature acts on instinct by judging others.

The sad truth is that, we as Christians tend to judge more than non-believers. We see what is considered “ungodly” and therefore judge people before we even know them.

There are some amazing people out there that you just need to be willing to get to know.

I’m challenging you to act with me and pressure yourself to constantly not judge people before you get to know them. I’m trying for at least a week but hopefully longer. One day judgement day will come and He will judge us all.

Don’t feel bad if you have judged because everyone has. We’re all sinners. My only advice is to give it your best effort to try not to again. I really hate preaching like this but I’m as faulty if not more so than the rest of you are.

Thanks for listening to my ramblings. Have an amazing week! I’ll leave you with this verse to ponder.

Cheerio,

-Fayth

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