A Year of Learning

2015 was a crazy year. I experienced new highs and lows that I would never have guessed I would be concerned with. It’s always a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts when I reflect on a year, and each year is more vivid and fresh in my mind than the last one.

I learned what areas of my life and lifestyle that I need to work on. There are definitely habits of mine and actions/quirks that I am not the most proud of, and I know that I need to make a few changes. Nagging, doubting others, and striving for material perfection are a few of those bad habits that I want to turn around.

In order to address these works in progress, I’d like to try and apply 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 to my daily lifestyle. Am I patient? Am I kind? Do I envy? Do I boast? The goal is to work from the top on down, so that at some point I can say that I was patient and I was kind and I did not envy or boast, and so on.

I also learned that I need to determine and evaluate the true importance of everything I seek and dream of. What should be prioritized? How can I healthily go about doing this? How can I ensure that this is a healthy ambition, or that I pursue my desires in a healthy manner.

I think 2015 also taught me that I should sleep more. Sleep is important and I am always forgetting that.

Another goal of mine is to start eating healthier and putting effort into exercising in the off-season! Trying to eat natural and fresh foods has always been appealing to me, however, working at a grocery store makes that hard!

Additionally, I have so, so much to be grateful for this past year.

I now have my driver’s license! Through various journeys, the miraculous patience of my parents, a few tears, and more life lessons, I acquired that coveted piece of plastic.

I have strengthened existing friendships and invested in genuine new ones. A new school year and more shared adventures are always exciting in that they bring me and other individuals together in various relationships. I am so, so blessed and I celebrate my friendships today! 

And, finally, all of my cousins from Guatemala were able to come and visit us here in the U.S. for a month! We had a such a fantastic time reuniting and investing real-life time and energy into our friendships. It was a magical Christmas in that regard. I am so lucky to have many cousins that come from both of my parent’s families. Cousins make forever friends. It was a great December season to feel loved, be loved, and give love.

In regards to prayer requests for myself and the coming year, what comes to mind is this: church. I currently am not affiliated with any official church or body of people for the purpose of meeting routinely to worship and grow in faith together. Although I do this with my friends, I am not sure if it is in God’s plan for me to find another church or group to further develop my faith with. To be frank, visiting churches scares me. I don’t want to do it. It’s often uncomfortable and I feel like Christians judge more than those who are not, which is the sad truth these days. However, I’m asking you to pray for me and that I would face this fear and that it would dissipate, and also that God would show me another church or group that I can grow to comfortably be a part of if He wills it. Thank you.

I have learned and grown in a multitude of ways this past year, and I am so excited to see what God has in store for me this coming year! Here’s to a year of learning and the coming year of applying the knowledge received. 

It’s time to sleep.

D. Fayth

Advertisements

Quote of the Week+

First things first, happy new year!

I do presume that by this time and date, January 2nd, 3:18 P.M. on the east coast of the United States, it is the start of the new year according to the Western calendar all around the world.

Of course, I took into consideration that places like China have their own separate new year dates and celebrations.

Back on track, as I mentioned in my last post, here, 2014 was a good year and I am incredibly excited for what 2015 holds for me.

Yesterday, I signed up for daily emails at http://www.bibleinoneyear.org. I am very eager at the prospect of frequently reading Scripture. A hope is to at least be in God’s word this year a lot more than last year, if not getting through the whole Bible. There’s commentary along with daily scripture readings from several different parts of the Bible every day.

There is an app for both iOS and android, but I’m afraid that I only have iOS 6 so I had to sign up for the emails.

As for the quote this week, I’m starting out the year with a few words of encouragement. I know that I personally get lost and fall down in the dumps of despair from time to time, and I absolutely hate it.

This is such a good reminder that God is our rock, our foundation, and our strength. When we cry out, God has us. For we might lose our way, but Jesus never loses us.

srt-thanksgiving_instagram_day11

–D. Fayth

2k14 in All Its Glory

Can I saw wow?! Woah, so much has happened in this past year, and it has quite possibly been the best year yet of my short life. 2k14, or, more technically speaking, 2014, has been a drastic year of growth, of change, new friends, new experiences, more memories, and disappointments as well as joys.

Let me just say that now I look at myself last year and think: how was I so oblivious?

I did some stupid stuff, and I thought I was cool and knew stuff that I literally knew nothing about. At the same time, I know that next year I’ll look back at this year like that, and so on and so forth.

I was just talking with my dad the other day about how we have the tendency to always look back on times that we thought we knew a lot and had everything working out for us, but in reality we knew little or close to nothing. He assured me that it happens every year, and how college will make you look back and high school and wonder, and how when you’re 30 you’ll look back at college and wonder, and it continues on and on. I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s a cycle.

As far as new year resolutions for 2014 held up, I honestly have no clue. Chances are, I didn’t manage to accomplish all of my goals. I don’t even remember what I had hopes for in 2014.

I vaguely remember myself reminiscing 2013 and all that held. Let me jump back to here and reread my reflections post for 2013. Ah, yes, 2013 was a year full of realizing what friendships were most valuable to me and establishing the existence of my faith. I fully admit that last year was a struggle with doubt and wondering if Jesus was really in my heart.

This year, with my faith a better understood, I was blessed and overjoyed to have climbed over and pretty much conquered doubt. There was still anxiety and a little creeping of doubt here and there in my faith this year, but I knew in my heart that Jesus was there, and that I, indeed, am saved. This was a relief and a joy, it brought pleasure to me and helped me focus more time on further developing my faith vs. establishing it’s existence.

Like always, the sea that is faith was ever changing, the tides were high, low, and in-between. Nearer to the end of this year, I finally started really delving into Scripture again to be inspired and motivated by the word of God.

Job was a really inspirational book for me, and I am amazed by God’s servant’s faith and trust in the Lord. Admittedly, after Job was over, I have again been lacking in spending time in the Bible, but I hope and pray to continue to read more and more of God’s Scripture in this coming year. Wisdom, hope, love, and words of encouragement lie within the Bible, and they are always a blessing.

Let me recount some of my blessings in 2014:

  • I scored a summer job, corn pollinating, but a job nonetheless (also, two weekly mowing jobs) — This made me extremely happy because I had been continually searching for a job, and, at my age it was hard to find one.
  • I purchased a Retina MacBook Pro! — After researching and gazing at MacBooks for almost half a year, I finally spent some of my savings (thanks God for the summer job!) to buy this fabulous machine that I am typing on right now. As an avid lover of technology, having a high quality laptop of my own meant that I could use it as I pleased and whenever I pleased, something that is super convenient although not necessary. Also, with my interest and enjoyment in graphic design, once I have enough to purchase the Adobe Cs6 Design software, a Mac is definitely one of the best laptops to run it.
  • The start of the school year was a smooth one. With 2014 only being my third year in the public school world, and not being the most gifted in the sociable area, I was very thankful to start the school year off well with new friendships, old friendships, and additional acquaintances.
  • A trip to the beach with my cousins was successfully made. I love the beach, nature in itself is absolutely gorgeous and God mesmerizes me with all his intricate creations and creativity, but I have to say that the beach is one of my all time favorite places. Additionally, my cousins are some of my all time favorite people who I am blessed to have strong friendships with. All of us were stuffed in a tiny house, and two of the days were a little drizzly, but lots of memories and quality time was spent at the beach, and there was fun in nearly every moment. The beach is my happy place.
  • My dearest friendships have stayed intact. Although I didn’t worry too much about this, I am ever grateful to have my close friends by my side. We can support each other in Christ and just life in general, regardless of what schools we attend and where we live. This, in itself, is a major praise and I am extremely thankful for them. They are among the best blessings.
  • My faith has grown. Of all of these, I am completely and incredibly thankful that I have gotten to know myself and my Creator better than ever before this year. 2014 has been full of experiences that have shaped and continue to shape me as a person and Christian through trials and joys. With prayers and words heaven bound and worship in solitude and union, I rejoice for He is the Almighty, and through Him I am challenged and strive to make the most of this life on earth.

As I venture into the new year I know that I am not alone, for He is with me, and I have my friends and family by my side.

I am extremely excited to see what 2015 brings in life and faith. Incredibly thankful for a wonderful, wonderful 2014. 2k14 in all its glory ladies and gentlemen!

I am praying for a lovely end of 2014 and a spectacular start to 2015 during this wonderful holiday break off of school. It is my hope to take advantage of opportunities of sharing Jesus’ good news this coming year!

To living and loving for Him, and a new year holding lots of joy–

Cheers my friends!

Time Literally Flies

Yes, it’s already that time of year again. School, and I’m more unprepared then ever. Yay.

Hopefully what I’m feeling right now is just last minute nerves and tomorrow everything will go up to par on the first day back.

Where in the world did summer go this year?! A ten short weeks breezed past in a more-than-timely fashion due to the abundance of snow days and fuller schedule of my summer this year.

I was very blessed this summer with finding a part-time job and some yard work to save up for my own laptop! I now have the money but I need to find one and commit – which, in the long run, is the hardest part for me. Work kept me busy enough to not blow my brains out thinking too much, and it also helped me to appreciate the free time that I did have more than I might have otherwise.

Part of the aforementioned business contributed to the fact that I didn’t post too many genuine content-filled posts this summer, but I am happy that I managed to squeeze a few in here and there.

August has been a bit hectic due to fall sports preseason but now that the long hours of practice are over maybe things will die down a little. Who am I kidding here?

I venture into this new school year with hope of new friendships, reviving old ones, strengthening existing ones, and spreading Christ’s love into the lives of those around me through my actions.

Delving into God’s word is something that I hope to make daily, and I pray that I will glean strength and growth in my faith from it. Prayers for me to invest more into His word are very much appreciated, because I have already said many times that I would only to not get around to it.

Tomorrow is another end and another beginning.

As titled, time really does fly. I guess college will be here before I know it. I’m not ready to think about that yet though, I have a few years.

I don’t feel ready for the new school year, but God is with me always and will help me through it. I have nothing to fear.

tumblr_lpofq7c5aF1qbatwqo1_1280

Cheers to more opportunities and change,

God Bless,

–Fayth

2014/Reflection on 2013

2014.  It’s another year, a new beginning, a start, a change, a blessing, a lesson, a journey, a mountain, a climb, and a simple number.  A two, zero, one, four. A new year to prosper, to flourish, blossom, conquer, and praise Him.

We always seem to tell the new year to be good to us, but how can it be? Jesus is the one who controls and oversees our lives. He makes our lives to shape our beings, and He carries us through the ups and downs for His own reasons.

Seeing as we’re in the last stretch of 2013, I’m feeling rather reflective on this year at the moment. So, so much has changed. Maybe it’s just because now, I’m still a child, but ever so much more understanding, mature, and growing.

2013 has been a huge growth year for me. I’ve established my best friends, good friends, and just several friendships that have grown to mean worlds to me. Jesus has  been good to me. As He always is, regardless of my clouded vision.

Not only in friendship, but in faith, in virtues, in wisdom, thoughts, and actions I’ve grown.

I see my childish actions from  before, and sometimes, I wonder how I used to be that, but now I’m so different.  Adults always tell me that life passes in a blink, and that you grow up before you know it.

It’s one of those sayings you grow used to and tired of hearing the older people in your life say. There’s so much truth to it though. I am simply a teen, and I don’t even begin to try to comprehend what adults mean by this, but I do understand. I understand how people can change, friendships can change, life can change, I can change, and all in an instant. If I revealed my age to you, I believe you’d be rather shocked. At the fact that I’m as old as I am, and I guess I seem older through my musings and reflections.

There are days during a year that pass by seemingly dutifully slow, and there are days that you’re having so much fun that they whiz past you in a blur. All of those days make up your life, help shape who you are, and add to your life knowledge. They teach you what is right and what is wrong, if you can even define that.

I’ve learned that complaining doesn’t help, or at least, most of the time it doesn’t. I’ve learned that doing the things that scare you the most, or that you dread, turn out to be the beginning of something great. I get scared easily, of what others think, of how I’ll look to others, and I do have an insecure feeling about how others view me.

It’s a horrible feeling, anxiety that is. I’ve learned that you need to put that behind you. Don’t be scared of what others think. Pursue whatever you want, within Godly standards, and if others judge you, they’re not worth thinking about.

This isn’t be any means easy. I’m still learning as it is, and I’m struggling with the aforementioned concept and conquering my fear, but I’m taking baby steps. Jesus is with me, and you, every step of the way.

My faith journey has fluctuated so much throughout the year of 2013. It has gone from strong, to tentative, to somewhere in-between. Admittedly, at the moment it’s in that middle space, but I pray that Jesus will set me on the path to strong again.

Recently, a friend gave me a tip, she said something vaguely along the lines of, “Don’t be worried about it, you can do it. Think about it this way, you can’t do anything, but God, yeah, He can do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. So just do it.”

As far as friendships go, I don’t necessarily have all my closest friends at my high school, but I have wonderfully Godly best friends that all live in the vicinity somewhat near me.  I am very blessed to have wonderful guys and girls as my closest friends, and enjoy every second of my time spent with them. I feel like I rely on my friends so much, for prayer and everything, and they are a huge blessing. It’s awesome to have friends of both genders. Having input and advice from both perspectives is immensely helpful and meaningful. At the beginning of 2013 I would’ve just said they’re good friends, but now I can say they’re my best.

I started this blog in 2013, and it’s helped me reflect on my faith journey, address my issues, doubts, praises, and just Christianity as a whole. I’d like to thank you, as readers, for just reading my musings and ups and downs. It just means a lot, that someone out there is reading what I’m writing, that someone cares, and that someone relates to me. I appreciate any and every comment people make. Please, comment and tell me what you think! Or prayer requests and anything like that is welcome!

All in all 2013 was a good year. A lovely one. Albeit, A rough one at times, and many lessons were learnt, but that was all for the greater good. God blessed me this past year, and I wouldn’t change anything, even though I do have my regrets.  It has left me with many memories that will linger.

Praying that you ring in the new year with love, joy, peace, and hope. 2014 shall be a good year, I have faith in Jesus.

Wishing you the best ending to 2013, and joy in the coming year. Make it count. Work with Jesus, and make it something to be proud of and to reflect on. Cut bad habits, start new journeys, climb bigger mountains, and be constant in prayer and praising Him.

Blessings,

~Fayth