Effort

To be fully invested in anything you need to put forth effort. As a self-motivated individual, I know this all too well. However, there is a discrepancy between knowing and acting, and yet another in truly knowing with one’s soul and heart and spirit or simply knowing with one’s mind.

My spiritual life has been lackluster as of late, and every little reminder of this fact I seem to brush aside and get annoyed by. I know in my mind that this needs to change, and I know deep down in my heart as well, but I need to put the extra effort into it. I pray that I will feel this and desire this and truly know this in my heart and soul, not just in my brain. 

I long for a renewal and a revival of my spiritual convictions and I hope that you will join me in prayer for this as well. 

It’s time to devote my effort and priorities into addressing Him and His plan for me. I need to trust, to believe, to heal, and to pray. I want to feel my spirit move in joy, worship, and awe again. So it’s time to get my head out of my head, literally, and into my heart and soul. 

Lord, show me the love I don’t deserve and revive my soul to thirst for you. x 

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A Year of Learning

2015 was a crazy year. I experienced new highs and lows that I would never have guessed I would be concerned with. It’s always a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts when I reflect on a year, and each year is more vivid and fresh in my mind than the last one.

I learned what areas of my life and lifestyle that I need to work on. There are definitely habits of mine and actions/quirks that I am not the most proud of, and I know that I need to make a few changes. Nagging, doubting others, and striving for material perfection are a few of those bad habits that I want to turn around.

In order to address these works in progress, I’d like to try and apply 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 to my daily lifestyle. Am I patient? Am I kind? Do I envy? Do I boast? The goal is to work from the top on down, so that at some point I can say that I was patient and I was kind and I did not envy or boast, and so on.

I also learned that I need to determine and evaluate the true importance of everything I seek and dream of. What should be prioritized? How can I healthily go about doing this? How can I ensure that this is a healthy ambition, or that I pursue my desires in a healthy manner.

I think 2015 also taught me that I should sleep more. Sleep is important and I am always forgetting that.

Another goal of mine is to start eating healthier and putting effort into exercising in the off-season! Trying to eat natural and fresh foods has always been appealing to me, however, working at a grocery store makes that hard!

Additionally, I have so, so much to be grateful for this past year.

I now have my driver’s license! Through various journeys, the miraculous patience of my parents, a few tears, and more life lessons, I acquired that coveted piece of plastic.

I have strengthened existing friendships and invested in genuine new ones. A new school year and more shared adventures are always exciting in that they bring me and other individuals together in various relationships. I am so, so blessed and I celebrate my friendships today! 

And, finally, all of my cousins from Guatemala were able to come and visit us here in the U.S. for a month! We had a such a fantastic time reuniting and investing real-life time and energy into our friendships. It was a magical Christmas in that regard. I am so lucky to have many cousins that come from both of my parent’s families. Cousins make forever friends. It was a great December season to feel loved, be loved, and give love.

In regards to prayer requests for myself and the coming year, what comes to mind is this: church. I currently am not affiliated with any official church or body of people for the purpose of meeting routinely to worship and grow in faith together. Although I do this with my friends, I am not sure if it is in God’s plan for me to find another church or group to further develop my faith with. To be frank, visiting churches scares me. I don’t want to do it. It’s often uncomfortable and I feel like Christians judge more than those who are not, which is the sad truth these days. However, I’m asking you to pray for me and that I would face this fear and that it would dissipate, and also that God would show me another church or group that I can grow to comfortably be a part of if He wills it. Thank you.

I have learned and grown in a multitude of ways this past year, and I am so excited to see what God has in store for me this coming year! Here’s to a year of learning and the coming year of applying the knowledge received. 

It’s time to sleep.

D. Fayth

Quote of the Week

A wonderful friend sent me this in a text as encouragement during preseason the other day. She is a dear prayer warrior and sister in Christ. I hope you find comfort in these words, as I did.

“My love for you is deeper than the deepest sea and higher than the highest heights. It is divine, lavish and beyond your wildest imagination. It penetrates to the deepest caverns in your soul. I love you like My Father loves Me. As I am the apple of His eye, so you too are the apple of My eye. Nothing in your past, present or future will ever cause you to lose My love. I rejoice over you. I take pleasure in all that you do. Walk in My love. Remain in My love. Take confidence in knowing that you will never be outside the fervent awareness of my extravagant love for YOU!”

Verse of the Week

This post is apologetically late, but I am tired, content, and sunburnt from the most lovely, refreshing day at the beach today. I truly am blessed, and as I venture forth into the unknown of this coming school year I will go with peace. God is fighting for me.

Quote of the Week

Forever grateful for God’s gracious love and sacrifice. Looking beyond the past to what He has promised us–

Quote of the Week

As a person who is prone to observing fellow humans, and one who currently interacts with an array of passive, nonchalant, and obscene strangers on an almost daily basis, I connect with the verity of these words:
Kindness is a fruit of the spirit, and I pray to show Jesus in my life through my conduct and attitude.

Cheers to giving your best efforts towards being an amicable human being, even if your daily endeavors aren’t too successful–

D. Fayth

Regret, Change, and Decisions

There will always be a time in your life when you are faced with a (or multiple) decision(s).

Making decisions is scary. Every little change in your life can ultimately impact you astronomically.

Recently, I’ve been hit in the face with a bunch of decisions. Something awakened inside of me and I’ve finally decided to accept and address the fact that I’m not truly happy with the way my life currently is. There is a mix of different priorities and time commitments that I’m questioning, and I have some very important choices to make.

My mum says that the teenage years are the prime time for change, and I can see that. Now that I’m young, it’s the opportune time to start exploring and stepping out of the comfort zone. Still, that is easier said than done, as most things seem to be in this day and age.

Now, for me, the ever overcomplicating person, it is definitely not without regret that I am facing these decisions and inevitable changes (or chances for change). In a way, I could carry on living life the way I am now. Dabbling in a little of this, spending a lot of time with that, and I would’ve been…okay. Not exactly happy, not exactly not, that is about what I would’ve been. I probably would be off drifting in this ocean of life somewhere on the edges of the eye of a turbulent storm.

But I’ve made a resolution: I want to be happy. Doesn’t everyone? You might ask. I know I asked myself that question, and yes, I wholeheartedly believe that everybody wants to be happy. However, happiness is not something that is easily achieved. I’m about to make some big decisions, and I know that a little spark of regret is going to follow me no matter what I choose. My ridiculously conflicted self just wants to be happy, and so I’m going to try and set my soul at ease. This is not something that can happen without God playing a part in my life, and so it is with serious consideration, lots of tears, long talks, and prayers that I am saying this.

Regret is this big, gaping, piercing cloud sometimes. It gnaws away at me, and I let it. Still, as I am praying about these decisions and changes that are bound to happen, I’m praying for peace. Regret is unnecessary, we can live without it. In fact, life is often better without regret. I’m not talking about a healthy regret after a sinful decision, no, I’m talking about an anxious regret, one of those regrets that make you question everything.With God’s help, I will overcome regret, among other things. With prayers of guidance and trust I pray to shame regret, to be given the wisdom to make the decisions and changes that will be accompanied by the least regret–

I need to focus on what is best for me and what is God’s will. At the moment, the impact of whatever decision I make is not to be based off of some third parties’ opinions and the thoughts of other mundanes around me. Everyone is deserved of happiness, including myself, and I pray to attain that with God and by His will. The taunts and jeers of other humans and my own sinful conscience will oft do nothing but sway me into a miserable state of unhappiness.

In this whirlwind of a post, I think I’m trying to say that change is inevitable. Decisions must be made, things change, regret happens, but life moves on. God wills what He wills, and He will let it be known to me with time. If you think of it, pray for me to discover what God wills for me.

We all have our moments of doubt and wish things turned out differently once in a while, but once something happens we do not have the opportunity to change the past. Only Jesus has that power, and He has a plan, no matter what happens. Everything happens to everybody because Jesus wills it. If He wants it to happen, it will happen. Remember that.

Forget regret, I want, and I will choose to be happy.

Quote of the Week

I am so, so blessed. In the darkest times and the most joyous He is with me without fail.

Social Media

In honor of social media day today, I’ve decided that this is the prime time to revive this post.

I’d like to start a conversation about social media.

In all honesty, it’s rather shocking that this topic hasn’t come up yet in the two years that I’ve run this blog.

Social media is a completely wonderful, fascinating, and terrifying thing. It’s amazing how instantaneously we can share bits and pieces of our lives with others, and there’s so many ways to go about doing that as well. Without the creation of the Internet, or WordPress, I wouldn’t even be starting a public conversation online right here and right now.

Social media is not exactly a necessity, although many might think now that it is. Our modern day world has grown so dependent and accustomed to having the ability to connect with others within minutes. I feel like we, as a young generation, but also everyone in today’s age as a whole, often forget that only a mere twenty years ago social media barely even existed.

I’m unsure if it even was a term back then.

Anyways, while social media has many benefits and can be used in so many helpful ways, it’s not always a good thing.

Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, Tumblr, and other social media sites can consume you.

You are NOT defined by a follower count, or who or how many people like your picture.

It honestly doesn’t matter. It does not matter in the slightest. It’s so hard, especially as teenagers, to realize and accept that. I know that I personally have struggled with this, and it doesn’t matter.

Social media should not consume you. You shouldn’t base your life on a
number of people that are your so called ‘friends’. Who cares if someone ignores your photo? It’s bound to happen to everyone at some point.

Social media can spread false and hurtful messages. If people do not pay as much attention to you through social media than your neighbor, that does not make you any less of a person.

However, I am not saying through all of this that social media is bad. Don’t see this in that light.

So much good has come from social media. Lives have been saved, friendships renewed, people connected, and God introduced to some who otherwise might have not been so fortunate.

Social media has changed the world, and it currently is revolutionizing it. It is a wonderful, wonderful way of connecting people around the world and an abundant resource of quick factual knowledge at one’s fingertips.

Simply, take this as a cautious warning against getting too caught up in the back alleys of social media, and realize that social media really doesn’t matter. God has given us this life on earth, so treasure it.

Jesus is the one who matters, and not the number of strangers you are connected with through social media.

Don’t let social media define you. If you find it becoming to much of a focus on your life, or realize that it’s on the top of your priority list, take a break.

Delete the app, delete your account, or let it go for a month. Consider whatever it takes. Maybe you’d be blessed to take a fast from your social media, and become more dependent on God in the time away. Refocus and reenergize.

Love others and yourself. Don’t hold bitter feelings toward another because they don’t like your photo on Facebook. Worded that way, it seems very petty. In reality, there are more people out there than you’d think who struggle with that type of insecurity and those feelings. Depression and suicidal emotions have been evoked due to such insecurities.

It is with God and personal experience in mind that I share this, and I pray that I will stray from caring too much about social media and others opinions. I’m working on finding my way (with God’s help) past that. Pray that I would have strength to focus on Jesus, and reevaluate my priorities.

What is your viewpoint on social media?

How has it affected your life either positively, negatively, or both?

Please do share, I’d love to pray for you, and I’d like to start a conversation about social media.

Quote of the Week

Sometimes we need to go beyond our boundaries to discover things that God has in store for us.