A Year of Learning

2015 was a crazy year. I experienced new highs and lows that I would never have guessed I would be concerned with. It’s always a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts when I reflect on a year, and each year is more vivid and fresh in my mind than the last one.

I learned what areas of my life and lifestyle that I need to work on. There are definitely habits of mine and actions/quirks that I am not the most proud of, and I know that I need to make a few changes. Nagging, doubting others, and striving for material perfection are a few of those bad habits that I want to turn around.

In order to address these works in progress, I’d like to try and apply 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 to my daily lifestyle. Am I patient? Am I kind? Do I envy? Do I boast? The goal is to work from the top on down, so that at some point I can say that I was patient and I was kind and I did not envy or boast, and so on.

I also learned that I need to determine and evaluate the true importance of everything I seek and dream of. What should be prioritized? How can I healthily go about doing this? How can I ensure that this is a healthy ambition, or that I pursue my desires in a healthy manner.

I think 2015 also taught me that I should sleep more. Sleep is important and I am always forgetting that.

Another goal of mine is to start eating healthier and putting effort into exercising in the off-season! Trying to eat natural and fresh foods has always been appealing to me, however, working at a grocery store makes that hard!

Additionally, I have so, so much to be grateful for this past year.

I now have my driver’s license! Through various journeys, the miraculous patience of my parents, a few tears, and more life lessons, I acquired that coveted piece of plastic.

I have strengthened existing friendships and invested in genuine new ones. A new school year and more shared adventures are always exciting in that they bring me and other individuals together in various relationships. I am so, so blessed and I celebrate my friendships today! 

And, finally, all of my cousins from Guatemala were able to come and visit us here in the U.S. for a month! We had a such a fantastic time reuniting and investing real-life time and energy into our friendships. It was a magical Christmas in that regard. I am so lucky to have many cousins that come from both of my parent’s families. Cousins make forever friends. It was a great December season to feel loved, be loved, and give love.

In regards to prayer requests for myself and the coming year, what comes to mind is this: church. I currently am not affiliated with any official church or body of people for the purpose of meeting routinely to worship and grow in faith together. Although I do this with my friends, I am not sure if it is in God’s plan for me to find another church or group to further develop my faith with. To be frank, visiting churches scares me. I don’t want to do it. It’s often uncomfortable and I feel like Christians judge more than those who are not, which is the sad truth these days. However, I’m asking you to pray for me and that I would face this fear and that it would dissipate, and also that God would show me another church or group that I can grow to comfortably be a part of if He wills it. Thank you.

I have learned and grown in a multitude of ways this past year, and I am so excited to see what God has in store for me this coming year! Here’s to a year of learning and the coming year of applying the knowledge received. 

It’s time to sleep.

D. Fayth

Summer Grew Wings and Flew

And, once again, summer grew wings and flew. All were in awe and amazement at the speed of the feat had been accomplished.

Wow, this summer has been crazy full of arguments, building friendships, new experiences, and adjusting to uncomfortable situations. This marks 2k15 as the summer that I held my first non-seasonal job. Since June, I’ve worked between 20-30 hours a week, which, for a part-time job, a decent quantity of time. Volleyball has kicked back up and is now in full swing – it is such a time commitment and whirlwind journey that takes me up and down and makes me hate and love the sport. Praying for a season full of memories and confidence and growth with the Lord, other individuals, and abilities.

I’ve been doing an awful job of posting as of late, and, also, I’m stretching myself with extreme procrastination with summer homework. Therefore, I should probably stop typing and go do something about that. Pffft, speaking about proactivity that is not going to happen quite yet…

In my recent ponderings, I’ve mulled over the change and responsibility that accompanies aging. Every year becoming a little bit older brings an awareness that younger individuals are looking up to me – this is especially realizable when it comes to any team or group effort, in my case, my volleyball team. When looked at this way, I feel a sense of intimidation and also shame when looking at a reflection of my actions at the age I am now. Still, it is with God who I confide in to put those past actions aside. We no longer have the ability to control the past, so we learn from it and move on. We do have the ability to, at least partially, control the future, so it is with great hope that I can be a decent model for those observing and succeeding me.

A fault of mine that has particularly come to eye recently has to be judgement. I hear a few words spew out of the mouth of an individual, gauge their general air and others’ reactions to them, and too often find myself thinking thoughts or making remarks that I have no designated worthiness to make. It is my prayer this fall to stop this automatic judgement and instead to receive people I encounter with an open mind and willing amicability. 

Anyhow, I hope and pray that all of you are having smooth transitions from the end of summer into the next season of this year and life.
Here’s to a new school year with faith and love preceding all other things. 

With trust in Him,

D. Fayth

Quote of the Week

As a person who is prone to observing fellow humans, and one who currently interacts with an array of passive, nonchalant, and obscene strangers on an almost daily basis, I connect with the verity of these words:
Kindness is a fruit of the spirit, and I pray to show Jesus in my life through my conduct and attitude.

Cheers to giving your best efforts towards being an amicable human being, even if your daily endeavors aren’t too successful–

D. Fayth

Regret, Change, and Decisions

There will always be a time in your life when you are faced with a (or multiple) decision(s).

Making decisions is scary. Every little change in your life can ultimately impact you astronomically.

Recently, I’ve been hit in the face with a bunch of decisions. Something awakened inside of me and I’ve finally decided to accept and address the fact that I’m not truly happy with the way my life currently is. There is a mix of different priorities and time commitments that I’m questioning, and I have some very important choices to make.

My mum says that the teenage years are the prime time for change, and I can see that. Now that I’m young, it’s the opportune time to start exploring and stepping out of the comfort zone. Still, that is easier said than done, as most things seem to be in this day and age.

Now, for me, the ever overcomplicating person, it is definitely not without regret that I am facing these decisions and inevitable changes (or chances for change). In a way, I could carry on living life the way I am now. Dabbling in a little of this, spending a lot of time with that, and I would’ve been…okay. Not exactly happy, not exactly not, that is about what I would’ve been. I probably would be off drifting in this ocean of life somewhere on the edges of the eye of a turbulent storm.

But I’ve made a resolution: I want to be happy. Doesn’t everyone? You might ask. I know I asked myself that question, and yes, I wholeheartedly believe that everybody wants to be happy. However, happiness is not something that is easily achieved. I’m about to make some big decisions, and I know that a little spark of regret is going to follow me no matter what I choose. My ridiculously conflicted self just wants to be happy, and so I’m going to try and set my soul at ease. This is not something that can happen without God playing a part in my life, and so it is with serious consideration, lots of tears, long talks, and prayers that I am saying this.

Regret is this big, gaping, piercing cloud sometimes. It gnaws away at me, and I let it. Still, as I am praying about these decisions and changes that are bound to happen, I’m praying for peace. Regret is unnecessary, we can live without it. In fact, life is often better without regret. I’m not talking about a healthy regret after a sinful decision, no, I’m talking about an anxious regret, one of those regrets that make you question everything.With God’s help, I will overcome regret, among other things. With prayers of guidance and trust I pray to shame regret, to be given the wisdom to make the decisions and changes that will be accompanied by the least regret–

I need to focus on what is best for me and what is God’s will. At the moment, the impact of whatever decision I make is not to be based off of some third parties’ opinions and the thoughts of other mundanes around me. Everyone is deserved of happiness, including myself, and I pray to attain that with God and by His will. The taunts and jeers of other humans and my own sinful conscience will oft do nothing but sway me into a miserable state of unhappiness.

In this whirlwind of a post, I think I’m trying to say that change is inevitable. Decisions must be made, things change, regret happens, but life moves on. God wills what He wills, and He will let it be known to me with time. If you think of it, pray for me to discover what God wills for me.

We all have our moments of doubt and wish things turned out differently once in a while, but once something happens we do not have the opportunity to change the past. Only Jesus has that power, and He has a plan, no matter what happens. Everything happens to everybody because Jesus wills it. If He wants it to happen, it will happen. Remember that.

Forget regret, I want, and I will choose to be happy.

Quote of the Week

I am so, so blessed. In the darkest times and the most joyous He is with me without fail.

Social Media

In honor of social media day today, I’ve decided that this is the prime time to revive this post.

I’d like to start a conversation about social media.

In all honesty, it’s rather shocking that this topic hasn’t come up yet in the two years that I’ve run this blog.

Social media is a completely wonderful, fascinating, and terrifying thing. It’s amazing how instantaneously we can share bits and pieces of our lives with others, and there’s so many ways to go about doing that as well. Without the creation of the Internet, or WordPress, I wouldn’t even be starting a public conversation online right here and right now.

Social media is not exactly a necessity, although many might think now that it is. Our modern day world has grown so dependent and accustomed to having the ability to connect with others within minutes. I feel like we, as a young generation, but also everyone in today’s age as a whole, often forget that only a mere twenty years ago social media barely even existed.

I’m unsure if it even was a term back then.

Anyways, while social media has many benefits and can be used in so many helpful ways, it’s not always a good thing.

Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, Tumblr, and other social media sites can consume you.

You are NOT defined by a follower count, or who or how many people like your picture.

It honestly doesn’t matter. It does not matter in the slightest. It’s so hard, especially as teenagers, to realize and accept that. I know that I personally have struggled with this, and it doesn’t matter.

Social media should not consume you. You shouldn’t base your life on a
number of people that are your so called ‘friends’. Who cares if someone ignores your photo? It’s bound to happen to everyone at some point.

Social media can spread false and hurtful messages. If people do not pay as much attention to you through social media than your neighbor, that does not make you any less of a person.

However, I am not saying through all of this that social media is bad. Don’t see this in that light.

So much good has come from social media. Lives have been saved, friendships renewed, people connected, and God introduced to some who otherwise might have not been so fortunate.

Social media has changed the world, and it currently is revolutionizing it. It is a wonderful, wonderful way of connecting people around the world and an abundant resource of quick factual knowledge at one’s fingertips.

Simply, take this as a cautious warning against getting too caught up in the back alleys of social media, and realize that social media really doesn’t matter. God has given us this life on earth, so treasure it.

Jesus is the one who matters, and not the number of strangers you are connected with through social media.

Don’t let social media define you. If you find it becoming to much of a focus on your life, or realize that it’s on the top of your priority list, take a break.

Delete the app, delete your account, or let it go for a month. Consider whatever it takes. Maybe you’d be blessed to take a fast from your social media, and become more dependent on God in the time away. Refocus and reenergize.

Love others and yourself. Don’t hold bitter feelings toward another because they don’t like your photo on Facebook. Worded that way, it seems very petty. In reality, there are more people out there than you’d think who struggle with that type of insecurity and those feelings. Depression and suicidal emotions have been evoked due to such insecurities.

It is with God and personal experience in mind that I share this, and I pray that I will stray from caring too much about social media and others opinions. I’m working on finding my way (with God’s help) past that. Pray that I would have strength to focus on Jesus, and reevaluate my priorities.

What is your viewpoint on social media?

How has it affected your life either positively, negatively, or both?

Please do share, I’d love to pray for you, and I’d like to start a conversation about social media.

Quote of the Week

Sometimes we need to go beyond our boundaries to discover things that God has in store for us.

The Future

What a daunting, stressful, and exciting subject.

The future: typically consisting of college or university, high school graduation, choosing a profession, earning a living, and doing something with your life.

We worry too much. Yes, we all want to do great things. Or, at least, I want to do great things, however, there will always be mountains to climb and valleys to stumble in before we achieve greatness. And, also, everyone thinks of greatness as something different. To me, earthly greatness is finding something to do in life that I love, and to spread God’s message through it.

Last night was my older sister’s high school graduation party, so it was rather nostalgic and a glimpse at what I will encounter in the near years. I am, to be frank, a worrywart. I stress about my grades, I stress about busy schedules, but all at the same time, I love to be doing things and am excited about the future. How exactly does that work? I’m not sure, but God knows.

Yes there is pressure on myself, especially for school, from people who know I am academically blessed and myself. However, there is a line between having a life and perfectionism and working too hard. I need to come to terms with this, and yet, I pray that I will learn how to live my life accordingly. Life can’t be worth living if all that is prioritized are grades and earthly matters.

There are many challenges and trials in life that God gives us for a purpose, and He has blessed me in unique ways that I want to stretch and utilize in order to please Him. He additionally has given me weaknesses, also accordingly, so that I may learn and grow in the process of living life in the future (for the future).

The future, there’s that daunting subject yet again. If we’re speaking in technical terms, at this very moment, I am living the future. We are all living the future. We live in the future. The future is here and now and it is in every single breath I take. I don’t even know if I can reference the future as a subject, or even an object. The future is all part of a concept. Today’s past was yesterday’s future and tomorrow’s future will be the day after tomorrow’s past. Things get messy real quick if you reference the whole time concept of future in that regard.

Pressure almost always surrounds the concept of future. Often times there are massive walls of individual’s expectations for you to excel and achieve a level of “success” however it is deemed.

Yet, while keeping all this in the back of your mind, don’t stress out too much. Simply focus on what God throws at you each and every day. You tackle the future every moment of your life. What some people consider a waste of time could be a necessary period of relaxation. Don’t cave and subject yourself to worry and stress about the future based on what other individuals think or say, but live your life and view the future with a swing in your step and Jesus in mind.

He has plans for you, plans for you to prosper. Only He knows how they will turn out, and every single instance of your life plays out for reasons entirely unknown to everyone except God.

Speaking of the future, consider what you might think when you look back at yourself now in ten years.

God has a plan. I am excited. I am scared. The future is daunting, but I would like to think of myself as ready.

This was such a discombobulated post, but I hope someone out there gleans from my emotions and what I am trying to express through these words.

With a determination to look at the future from a different perspective–

D. Fayth

Quote of the Week

Oh how marvelous and how wonderful is He. I forget it too often. The best comes from relying on His fathomless love rather than on our own limited willpower. 743eaf2a961e127fcab6c6bcd74e2a44

Quote the Week

This week, the quote originates from my lovely Dad. He has tidbits of wisdom that he shares with me when I am in crisis, tears, or just in random moments. As much as I say I despise him in instances of anger, I really do love him.

There will always be someone who is better than you and worse than you at everything.

It’s okay to not be the best. Remember that. I too often forget it. Yes, life is a competition, but don’t you want to live and love for Jesus throughout it all? Also, live for yourself. This is such an acute reminder for me, as well. I am not perfect, I have my strengths and my weaknesses.

It’s okay to not make varsity, to receive a mediocre test grade, to not be involved in extracurriculars, to not make the cut for the school musical, to not be the at the tip top of your class.

It’s okay to not be the best.

God does not love you any less, and He has other plans in mind for you. Whether those may be making you the best in some other area of your life, or not, He surely watches over us and will ensure that your life plays out exactly the way He desires it to.

He’s got the whole world in His hands.