Summer Grew Wings and Flew

And, once again, summer grew wings and flew. All were in awe and amazement at the speed of the feat had been accomplished.

Wow, this summer has been crazy full of arguments, building friendships, new experiences, and adjusting to uncomfortable situations. This marks 2k15 as the summer that I held my first non-seasonal job. Since June, I’ve worked between 20-30 hours a week, which, for a part-time job, a decent quantity of time. Volleyball has kicked back up and is now in full swing – it is such a time commitment and whirlwind journey that takes me up and down and makes me hate and love the sport. Praying for a season full of memories and confidence and growth with the Lord, other individuals, and abilities.

I’ve been doing an awful job of posting as of late, and, also, I’m stretching myself with extreme procrastination with summer homework. Therefore, I should probably stop typing and go do something about that. Pffft, speaking about proactivity that is not going to happen quite yet…

In my recent ponderings, I’ve mulled over the change and responsibility that accompanies aging. Every year becoming a little bit older brings an awareness that younger individuals are looking up to me – this is especially realizable when it comes to any team or group effort, in my case, my volleyball team. When looked at this way, I feel a sense of intimidation and also shame when looking at a reflection of my actions at the age I am now. Still, it is with God who I confide in to put those past actions aside. We no longer have the ability to control the past, so we learn from it and move on. We do have the ability to, at least partially, control the future, so it is with great hope that I can be a decent model for those observing and succeeding me.

A fault of mine that has particularly come to eye recently has to be judgement. I hear a few words spew out of the mouth of an individual, gauge their general air and others’ reactions to them, and too often find myself thinking thoughts or making remarks that I have no designated worthiness to make. It is my prayer this fall to stop this automatic judgement and instead to receive people I encounter with an open mind and willing amicability. 

Anyhow, I hope and pray that all of you are having smooth transitions from the end of summer into the next season of this year and life.
Here’s to a new school year with faith and love preceding all other things. 

With trust in Him,

D. Fayth

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Time Management: A Skill to Finesse

To all you older and wiser readers, I must confess that I am not particularly skilled at managing my time. Ah, time management..what a tricksy skill to master. If it is a skill at all, because is it really? Does it get any easier to handle with age? Actually, don’t answer that. I think that was a pretty rhetorical question.

Perhaps time management is something that is inherent, but it needs to be awakened. As a young individual, I often (*cough* …almost always…) find myself juggling my time precariously. However, it probably is around the time that I accept the facts; my school load is only going to increase from here, finishing out high school, college, employment, receiving more rigorous workloads, and the list goes on. I have concluded that, probably, something must be done.

Time is precious. Spending your time in a way that is valuable to you, is essential. Meditating and praying in God’s word every day should be, and I’d like to think is near, at the top of my list. It is something that I deem as extremely important, and therefore I must manage my time to fit that in my schedule. With daily emails, I have become increasingly better at this, but then it all comes down to my matter of priorities, which might need a bit of reorganization. It is so crucial to put God first in your life, and I strive to do that, but let’s save that for a different day.

Would you like one example that aroused my realization of this problem? Well, besides the fact that my Dad outright told me I needed to manage my hours better (in a joking matter, but in all seriousness we both knew his words were true), I currently am typing this blog post when my homework is calling my name and two tests are anticipating my completion tomorrow.  Oops. Yeah, again, priorities..

Well, let’s think of it this way. There are only 24 hours in a day. 24 hours that people constantly complain aren’t enough. At the same time, these days are hours spent by people complaining there is too little time, rather than making the most of it.

Why do we even gage time? Is the concept of pursuing goals and aspirations in life, while letting time simply run its course, that far-fetched? Obviously, as Americans, we must have some sort of schedule or master planner to make sure everything is timely. Or, on the other end of the spectrum, we don’t care enough to actually try, and then arrive ‘fashionably’ or ‘not-so-fashionably’ late.

Anyways, moving on from my mini-rant sesh, I suppose I should go about devising a plan to keep myself accountable for managing my time in an orderly fashion. That is, strictly so that my faith and grades and health don’t suffer. Note: Folks, my use of ‘and’ in the previous sentence provides a lovely example of a polysyndeton. My English teacher would be proud! Also, why is such a grammatical term marked with a red dotted line? I did spell it correctly. Ah, the english language for you las damas y los cabelleros (ladies and gentlemen, respectively, in the Spanish language of course.)

Moving on, as ineffectual as improper time management is, I pray that I will begin to hold a constant awareness of how I am spending my time, and if my use is of value to God and myself. Time management is something that I may never achieve in finesse, but I don’t expect to. It’ll take a lot of learning experience and decisive wisdom on my part to not get too carried away. Life has an abundance of ups and downs and ins and outs, and I intend to live my life fully for Jesus.  All the same, this doesn’t necessarily mean that from now in every second of my time will be enjoyable, restful, productive, or ‘useful’ and ‘efficient’. I can assure you that I will still procrastinate, for I am a teenager and sometimes things just don’t feel like they need to be done.

Still, I am all over setting a realistic goal for myself, in order to hone my time management abilities. By the grace, mercy, and undeserved blood of God, I am ever grateful to be equipped with the strength to do all things, including juggling my time.

With a sleepy, thankful heart, and many blessings your way,

–D. Fayth

Frustration and Experience

Frustrated and exhausted are two words that accurately sum up how I feel right now. School and sports are now in full swing and I’m feeling the stress press on me, but mostly for volleyball.

I’m a rather temperamental person, and easily get mad when I do poorly. Since my sport consists majorly of mental strength and belief in myself and my teammates I need a more positive outlook.

It’s crucial to be an encourager and shake off every mistake on the court. If you don’t do well the one play then you tell yourself that you’ll do well the next.

What bugs me to no end is the fact that I know what I’m doing wrong, but I’m not really taking the steps necessary to fix my mistakes. I need to speak up. I will speak up.

I will be an encourager and spread His light around in school and on the court.

I am so blessed to have the ability to even be active and play a sport, and therefore I want to play my heart out for HIM. To Him be the glory. He is my strength.

I need to believe in myself and trust my teammates because then I will make that serve or pass.

Giving up and staying frustrated is not the answer, I know this from experience. Every experience I have on and off the court shapes the person I am, the player I am, and affects the people around me.

I will cover.
I will call for help.
I will encourage.
I will step up and be a leader.
I will talk.
I will make this serve.
I will make this pass.

Experience has taught me a lot, and the experiences that God gives me every day continue to help me to learn.

I have no need to be frustrated. God will teach me and God is with me always. Everyone makes mistakes and nobody is perfect. That’s another thing, I really want to be constantly aware that God is with me all the time. He should be in the forefront of my mind before I talk or play or wander.

This is my prayer – to be patient, learn from experience, apply what I know needs to be changed, and to just constantly live and love and play with God in mind.

Please pray for me, it’s much appreciated. Everyone needs prayer, even Paul asked for prayers.

My skill sets fluctuate a lot from season to season, but I know that I am capable of doing anything through Christ Jesus.

Hoping for a positive outlook and just a fun experience my next game this Thursday!

To looking past frustrations and applying learned wisdom —

Time Literally Flies

Yes, it’s already that time of year again. School, and I’m more unprepared then ever. Yay.

Hopefully what I’m feeling right now is just last minute nerves and tomorrow everything will go up to par on the first day back.

Where in the world did summer go this year?! A ten short weeks breezed past in a more-than-timely fashion due to the abundance of snow days and fuller schedule of my summer this year.

I was very blessed this summer with finding a part-time job and some yard work to save up for my own laptop! I now have the money but I need to find one and commit – which, in the long run, is the hardest part for me. Work kept me busy enough to not blow my brains out thinking too much, and it also helped me to appreciate the free time that I did have more than I might have otherwise.

Part of the aforementioned business contributed to the fact that I didn’t post too many genuine content-filled posts this summer, but I am happy that I managed to squeeze a few in here and there.

August has been a bit hectic due to fall sports preseason but now that the long hours of practice are over maybe things will die down a little. Who am I kidding here?

I venture into this new school year with hope of new friendships, reviving old ones, strengthening existing ones, and spreading Christ’s love into the lives of those around me through my actions.

Delving into God’s word is something that I hope to make daily, and I pray that I will glean strength and growth in my faith from it. Prayers for me to invest more into His word are very much appreciated, because I have already said many times that I would only to not get around to it.

Tomorrow is another end and another beginning.

As titled, time really does fly. I guess college will be here before I know it. I’m not ready to think about that yet though, I have a few years.

I don’t feel ready for the new school year, but God is with me always and will help me through it. I have nothing to fear.

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Cheers to more opportunities and change,

God Bless,

–Fayth

I’m Insecure, Don’t Know What For

Yes, the title of this post is in fact a famous line from the most well-known One Direction song out there. XD

I have so many insecurities. Boy, what is it with me admitting my faults in these posts? It’s the best way to be open, honest, and relieve stress I guess. In a semi-recent vent/rant/sob post titled Lost on here, I wrote about my biggest insecurity.

To put it simply, I have an immense fear/guilt/anxiety outbreak whenever I receive a negative or even neutral response from anyone.

For me, that insecurity is even more evident when I don’t know the person, who does or does not give me the response, well.

What I’ve realized is that by living for Jesus and only focusing on treating everyone I stumble across with respect, it doesn’t matter.

If people hold grudges against me for little stuff I supposedly do, and I apologize if I know why, and treat them with the respect I want to be treated with then it’s their loss.

If humans aren’t willing to forgive and forget like you have , then don’t hold that against them. At the same time, don’t be affected by their actions towards you.

I’ve found that Bible verses help me immensely, and I really must delve into God’s word on a regular basis for support.

James 1:2-5 is a great short passage about joy through trials. My insecurities are trials of a sort, and the guilt I feel from doing nothing fades away when I believe and praise Him.

Thank you to gallopingstallion who put the Scripture reference of the James passage in the comments of my Envy & Friendship.

Here are the verses:

James 1:2-5

Trials and Temptations

2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.

All in all I pray that I will take these words to heart.

I have no reason to be insecure. I don’t know why I am. Well, it’s the fear of rejection which I’ve let creep in that’s taking it’s toll. It doesn’t matter though. Jesus is holding me up, and He is always by my side.

With Him I can do everything, and without Him I can’t even breathe.

Jesus washes away my sins, and helps me to treat others with due respect. He reaffirms me that my insecurities need not be insecurities, but lessons and blessings. After I cleanse myself of my wrongdoings, I pray that I will cast aside all guilt because then God has made me blameless.

Jesus I pray, help me let go of my insecurities, and let me live and treat others wholeheartedly for you.

Thanks for keeping me in your prayers.